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I'm not sure what this place will hold for me from now on. I've enrolled at the school, I've entered into a relationship, and I've now been faced with proof that I am not a god.
Whether this last thing is good or not, I don't know. For now, I will believe that it is and continue on, this time as a normal... or rather, above average, human.
[Screened to L, Raidou, Yuna, Reno and Mikami; hackable.] I've come to wonder just what the word 'cleansing' means. What does it entail? I know the definition of the word, but in this context... it is much more complex. For now, it seems only to be a thing of logic. Reviewing and correcting errors made by looking at things from one perspective only.
I still feel no guilt, no remorse for any of them with the exception of L. Is it wrong? Does that mean I'm still impure? Things I will have to pursue, I suppose. At least now there is more of an understanding. I now realize what parts of my actions have been wrong. I don't believe that all of them were, but the points that were brought up... many more innocents suffered from my actions than I had previously allowed myself to believe.
The hardest thing about believing yourself to be a god is realizing that you're not. I'm glad that I was purified by someone who understood how painful it would be. [/Screen]
[Private; hackable] Sex is a rather frightening thing. Most especially books about sex. I think it's about time I learned a little more about pornography... or attempt to take a medical class related to reproductive organs.
The security on these journals makes me uneasy. I'll have to investigate the coding language used, though I doubt anyone will read this -- the only one that might... well, things would be awkward, but not entirely unexpected. I wonder when he'll begin research... and whether we'll turn that into a game, as well. That might prove interesting, and get us past the uncomfortable stages. [/Private]
Whether this last thing is good or not, I don't know. For now, I will believe that it is and continue on, this time as a normal... or rather, above average, human.
[Screened to L, Raidou, Yuna, Reno and Mikami; hackable.] I've come to wonder just what the word 'cleansing' means. What does it entail? I know the definition of the word, but in this context... it is much more complex. For now, it seems only to be a thing of logic. Reviewing and correcting errors made by looking at things from one perspective only.
I still feel no guilt, no remorse for any of them with the exception of L. Is it wrong? Does that mean I'm still impure? Things I will have to pursue, I suppose. At least now there is more of an understanding. I now realize what parts of my actions have been wrong. I don't believe that all of them were, but the points that were brought up... many more innocents suffered from my actions than I had previously allowed myself to believe.
The hardest thing about believing yourself to be a god is realizing that you're not. I'm glad that I was purified by someone who understood how painful it would be. [/Screen]
[Private; hackable] Sex is a rather frightening thing. Most especially books about sex. I think it's about time I learned a little more about pornography... or attempt to take a medical class related to reproductive organs.
The security on these journals makes me uneasy. I'll have to investigate the coding language used, though I doubt anyone will read this -- the only one that might... well, things would be awkward, but not entirely unexpected. I wonder when he'll begin research... and whether we'll turn that into a game, as well. That might prove interesting, and get us past the uncomfortable stages. [/Private]