things i felt were important enough to keep:

• mcdonalds monopoly stickers
• a 15% off coupon for GREYHOUND "food service" locations
• an ugly ceramic horse i painted at my 12th birthday 
• my ex's half used deoderant
• movie theatre 3D glasses

lately all i want to do is write and talk about how good life is. i think because deep down i know this good mood won't last forever, and i am desperately trying to cling on to it as long as possible. and maybe later, when i am looking at these words, it will mean more that they came from this place out through my fingers and not anyone else's. i ( Read more... )

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 i have certainly had myself quite the night.

 i fucking love hall & oates!!!!!!!!!!!

and i fucking hate the wiggles!

so, there you have it.

cleaning my room. things i have found:

• a bag of approximately 300 pencil toppers
• pages and pages of printed lyrics (highlights include nelly's "ride wit me" , adam sandler's "lunchlady land", numerous 2pac songs, and that unforgettable classic by city high "what would you do")
• pages of printed "rules to live by" or things from "the joke page"
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 i finally know why i am here. i know why my body is on this earth, i know why blood flows through my veins, and i know everything will work out the way i want (and need) eventually. every moment of suffering seems inconsequential. it is a good day, a good life, a good time to be alive. i get it now. and i just hope i don't ever forget.

 she got incredibly ridiculously high and choked to death on some celery.

that's my most likely cause of death at this point, i believe.

life ain't all that fucking bad.

lately, this is the only thing that gets me through the day.