I have a headache....
I get to work with old ladies!!! I was hired at the Christmas Tree Shop this afternoon and my orientation is on Tuesday-hooray for money!!! They are cool with my summer term schedule and everything-oh man has a weight ever been lifted off my shoulders!!!
Okay.. now I need to get something out of my brain...
Am I just undatable? Is it really me? I've tried so hard to be positive and tell myself-like all sappy movies explain to the fat girls-the right guy will come along and like you for who you are not how you look... But I seriously don't know. As most of you know there was a certain individual I liked for a while at school and he turned me down-no big I'm over it. But I read his profile today and nearly passed out. Its all: I've been thinking and I really want a girlfriend now, I love my friends and everything but there is this part that I'm missing out on and I just really think its time for me to find someone; some bullshit like that. And I'm over here like hello? What the fuck? I just don't know people. Its shit like that that just puts me in a down mood. I mean I don't want to seem braggy here but I would be an amazing girlfriend! I'm a fucking awesome person! Totally datable-so whats the problem? Is it really me? Am I just a great friend and decent fling? Shit like this worries me so much you guys don't even know. My whole life I've been worried that I'll be alone and not get married and not have kids-its out of control. And things like this certainly do not make my future seem any brighter I can tell you. I just don't get it... I'm sounding sorry for myself and I apologize for that but its really getting annoying-how long am I suppose to be lonely? Why can't I be happy and with someone like everyone else? And for those of you saying well shit Lizz I'm not with anyone right now-yeah well you were at one point-I have never had a boyfriend-not one so you can go to hell... (sorry I'm just so unhappy about this-don't go to hell I didn't mean it)
Okay.. now I need to get something out of my brain...
Am I just undatable? Is it really me? I've tried so hard to be positive and tell myself-like all sappy movies explain to the fat girls-the right guy will come along and like you for who you are not how you look... But I seriously don't know. As most of you know there was a certain individual I liked for a while at school and he turned me down-no big I'm over it. But I read his profile today and nearly passed out. Its all: I've been thinking and I really want a girlfriend now, I love my friends and everything but there is this part that I'm missing out on and I just really think its time for me to find someone; some bullshit like that. And I'm over here like hello? What the fuck? I just don't know people. Its shit like that that just puts me in a down mood. I mean I don't want to seem braggy here but I would be an amazing girlfriend! I'm a fucking awesome person! Totally datable-so whats the problem? Is it really me? Am I just a great friend and decent fling? Shit like this worries me so much you guys don't even know. My whole life I've been worried that I'll be alone and not get married and not have kids-its out of control. And things like this certainly do not make my future seem any brighter I can tell you. I just don't get it... I'm sounding sorry for myself and I apologize for that but its really getting annoying-how long am I suppose to be lonely? Why can't I be happy and with someone like everyone else? And for those of you saying well shit Lizz I'm not with anyone right now-yeah well you were at one point-I have never had a boyfriend-not one so you can go to hell... (sorry I'm just so unhappy about this-don't go to hell I didn't mean it)