Does anyone use LJ anymore?

I had the random idea to stumble across mine and... wow

Are you reading this right now?

Yeah, you.

I know we don't talk much anymore.

I'm kind of terrible friend I guess.

But, if you are reading this... I just wanna let you know that everything is okay ( Read more... )

But I've taken up drinking alone.
At least once or twice a week.
Not much. Usually just a glass of whatever is sitting around.

Even still
I know it's bad.

I feel like I'm wasting my life.
Like I'm always just waiting for it to get better.

"Oh, well maybe after this blows over, it'll be okay."
or
"Just give it a little while, things will get better."
and the classic
"Tomorrow is a new day."

Whatever.

I know I'm not old enough to really be saying that I have my whle life, but.. if you think about it.. ( Read more... )

okay...
looks like LJ has undergone some kinda face life

what fresh hell is this?

I realized my life only has two speeds.
HORRIBLE FUCKING DEPRESSION
or
WTF ARE YOU DOING NOW

..obviously, this entry pertains to the latter.

So...

..my whole 'bi' thing ( Read more... )

because really..

I don't see any of  this shit working out

I'm just so tired of everything

doing all this work and putting in all this effort

only to have nothing at all to show for it

still getting fucked over in the end

fuck you life

you win

I officially have a second job now.
It's not so bad, I've balanced two jobs before.
Except, when I did that last time, both jobs had set schedules, so it wasn't as hard to get into a routine.

Both places are retail.
So I could be opening at one store and then closing at the other.
Or vise-versa.
Or just.. not at all.

I'm trying to prepare myself to never ( Read more... )

I just really need a place to vent the fuck out.
I am so fucking sick of Joe's mom, like you can't even fucking believe.

I know, I know.. it's my fault for getting mixed up with a guy who still lives at home.
Whatever, I'm an idiot.

We've had plans to move out before, then shit happened, and we couldn't.
His mom is constantly hitting us up for money for ( Read more... )

Okay so yeah, getting a car.
It's like... official now.
I'm fucking excited.

This fixes SO MANY PROBLEMS.

I can fucking quit my lame ass job and actually get SOMETHING ELSE.
Or for that matter... I CAN GET TWO JOBS.
Cause, seriously... I don't mind working. I really don't.
I actually LIKE to work, I just like being left alone long enough to get my goddamn ( Read more... )

Ugh, I'm an adult.

Okay, so me and Joe went out and looked at the condo.
It's pretty nice actually. Bigger then we thought.

Our realtor is cute.

I told her that we only really need a place with one bedroom, since it's only us, but since I wanted the extra space to put my workshop in, that we would wanna check out a two bedroom place also.
Turns out, the ( Read more... )