"Then what do you wanna do to improve yourself?"
The manager called me up and snapped at me few days ago.
She said she wasnt satisfied with my performance after 2 months here.
I feel angry.
I even think of leaving the position and seek for a new job.
Perhaps, management role wasnt meant for me... :(
As i couldnt keep it to myself, i bursted it out to him.
I trust him so much that i told everything to him.
I really let my wall down and open my vulnerabilities to him.
Bcs i know he'll be very bluntly honest about whatever im asking.
At least i can tolerate his sarcasm, and it hurt less.
I didnt expect him to solve my problem tho, just lend me an ear and listen to my rant is more than enough.
Thanks for Syaya that now i can accept him as someone that i like to see rather than someone that i want to be with.
Bcs i can feel that our personality doesnt match.
At the end of the meeting with my manager, she told me to not taking things personally.
Its really hard not to take things to the heart tho, bcs she compares me with my staff.
And the comparison was an absolute trash!!
I guess, this is how it feels to work with lady boss, quite emotional. *shrug*
However after few days of self reflection, i need to acknowledge that we might be having different perspective.
My manager might have had a bad day herself and her irritation may reflect her own mental state.
But khayr insyAllah, lets wait for another month and hopefully i'll improve by then.
She said she wasnt satisfied with my performance after 2 months here.
I feel angry.
I even think of leaving the position and seek for a new job.
Perhaps, management role wasnt meant for me... :(
As i couldnt keep it to myself, i bursted it out to him.
I trust him so much that i told everything to him.
I really let my wall down and open my vulnerabilities to him.
Bcs i know he'll be very bluntly honest about whatever im asking.
At least i can tolerate his sarcasm, and it hurt less.
I didnt expect him to solve my problem tho, just lend me an ear and listen to my rant is more than enough.
Thanks for Syaya that now i can accept him as someone that i like to see rather than someone that i want to be with.
Bcs i can feel that our personality doesnt match.
At the end of the meeting with my manager, she told me to not taking things personally.
Its really hard not to take things to the heart tho, bcs she compares me with my staff.
And the comparison was an absolute trash!!
I guess, this is how it feels to work with lady boss, quite emotional. *shrug*
However after few days of self reflection, i need to acknowledge that we might be having different perspective.
My manager might have had a bad day herself and her irritation may reflect her own mental state.
But khayr insyAllah, lets wait for another month and hopefully i'll improve by then.