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hazeleyedreamer

so content

Apr 23, 2004 20:09

wow...im really good right now. i went 2 parent/child work day w/ my mom on thursday. i wuz fine in the morning, then in the afternoon i got sick. i went 2 skool 2day but luckily, mom got outta work early so i didn't work long, or much. yesterday wuz demzy's b-day so HAPPY B-DAY DEMZY! LOVE YA!!! so 2day i felt like shit and it wuz my aun vicky's b ( Read more... )

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promisscuoz April 23 2004, 19:08:38 UTC

I've read a quote before that goes sumthing like this: "when you have someone or something as the center of your life you lose yourself." I think it's so true and it applies to your situation with Raynor. Raynor had been the center of your life for a long time and your everyday life consisted of something that had to do with him (thoughts, worries, and anxieties for him/about him). Thank God that's over cuz with him being the center of your life you wasted alot of time concentrating on him who almost never gave you his time of day and fully focusing on him caused u to miss out on things and also not being able to give much energy into ur other relationships with the special people in your life. Not that you should regret it but with this insight ("I already knew that." I'm sure you'd say) you can look forward to the future and realize what this whole Raynor thing did to you.

Your ramble is pleasant (at times) because you have good insight which most girls of our age lack.

hazeleyedreamer April 23 2004, 19:34:55 UTC

sank sank u my dear. yea, i already knew that, lol...and ur right...i don't regret it. i learned from this. its something i'll never ever ever do again. the way i wuz about raynor wuz a one time thing never 2 occur again, but like i said, no regrets!

promisscuoz April 23 2004, 20:20:14 UTC

Awesome because past mistakes are great learning experiences that shape who we are now. We come out much better and filled with knowledge and insight after mistakes happen and I love that.

zolitary_agony April 23 2004, 19:35:57 UTC

you needed the "last conversation"...lol yeah, i hope that youre okay with everything, i know how you must have felt, but youre getting over it and were here 4 you, if i was you and would have heard those things from tulips (at this time) i would have been so hurt, but i would also finally know what is going on. Like you said it brings closure...

hazeleyedreamer April 23 2004, 19:53:16 UTC

i wasn't hurt. it wuz confirming things i needed 2 confirm and im glad he wuz blunt and honest w/ me. and yea, ur situation w/ tulip is a little different. i really appreciate him calling me. it shows we both felt the same way about having misunderstandings between us and that no one wants a problem. i did need that last conversation. i've been saying it 4 some time now, but u kno me, i had 2 write the perfect letter cuz i don't like doing things by phone when i have 2 be the initiator cuz it makes things akward.