-OH groups are the worst
dude, it's so fucked up but it makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry that i found matt's myspace and tickle sites (not that i think he's looking to meet someone on tickle) and both of them say that he drinks. and i can't deal with that. there is something wrong with me.
for another thing it's super-duper upsetting to me that i believe half of what i see on the internet when i know that the line below it is completely untrue. he tells me he does NOT drink. his profile that HE wrote tells me he does.
why the hell do i freak out about the tiniest little things like this, instead of concentrating on the bigger issues? he and i have had so many discussions about this, and i'm convinced that this is just one of those things. some people are OCD about having a clean house, some people are freaks about their partner not smoking, i guess. is this just my thing... my weird little fucked up quirk? it seriously makes me sick to my stomach, though. i can't date a drinker. and that's that. it's always been that way. that's why i didn't trust faraj to rush and got uber-freaked out when he did (his hatred of drinking in high school is actually something that made me more attracted to him initially, but obviously that changed when he did). josh didnt drink when he was with me. shortly after i found out both of them started volunarily putting themselves into situations like that is when we broke up.
is this just something i can't handle? does that make me a bitch? a bad girlfriend? a freak?
I just don't understand why people place the importance that they do on alcohol. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm a freak becuase I don't drink. I just think everyone who does ... um... sort of is. That's what makes me a weirdo. But why? Any other substance that alters your brain and workings of your body is for one thing ILLEGAL, but even if it wasn't it still is a toxin. Sure your body can eliminate it after a few hours, but anything that fucks you up so bad you can't drive yourself somewhere... WHY would you want to put that into your body? I think its fucked up that people buy alcohol, I think its fucked up that people drink it, and most of all I think it's fucked up that people buy it for their underage friends so THEY can drink it. WHY do people feel they need this substance to have a good time? I think drinking is a sign of weakness.
everywhere you look society tells you what you're supposed to think about alcohol: that it's awesome. and that it will make you awesome. i think it makes you a dumbass.
and i'm not talking about drunks or alcoholics. i'm talking about people who drink.
and you know what... i'm PROUD that i dont touch the stuff, and that's not up for discussion.