what a total fuckin waist of time..... I'm really gettin sick of this fuckin shit.

the last couple weekends have been amazing. its crazy how you don't see someone for years and then out of the blue things are almost exactly as they were 3 years ago.

fuck. i dont think i can get drunk off beer anymore....

tonight i realized how much i miss certain things from my past....

Im at the end of the road, i have nothing.... Im ready to go now

so i havent eaten yet at all today.... not hungry... i got work soon.. today sux worse than yesterday

today was such a shitty day. I feel unloved, alone, and worthless. I'm loosing one of the most important people in my life... I love her so much..... Recently I walked away from something I helped create. Not a day goes by that i don't wish i could go back and change that...

well it seems ive gotten myself in trouble again, i dont really give a shit though. So I think tonight ima drink alot of beer, till the point off death....sweet sweet death...

I have never been this happy. I am so lucky to have her

So I haven't updated in a while...... lets see new years i drank a fifth of jack in like 5 min and almost died....tis a shame i didn't. I'm about done with a certain person... fuckin bitch