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[Private. Hackable to all but Zidane]
This. God, I don't even know how to start this entry or why I'm even thinking like I am. I guess I just might as well come out and say it: I'm scared of Zidane.
He died. I don't know what happened that night, or why or any details passed the fact that he died. I got the news from a very, very reliable source. Xigbar told me that Zidane was laying on the table with his chest cut open and that they couldn't save him because of some kind of poision.
But, as you all saw by his last journal, he's not dead. He woke up in freaking morgue with a toe tag and everything and just got up and walked out! People don't do that! How...? How could he even be alive after all of that? Xigbar never would have told me what he did unless he was completely sure. And now...
What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to act now? He told me that he wanted to see me in his journal and I stopped answering him because I don't know how to tell him that I don't want to see him. Not right now... I don't even know what to say to him without completely freaking out.
I've spend the past few days crying and desperately trying to get a hold of Riku. He's not answering either and I'm worrying
like crazy that something might have happened to him too. Riku, please, if you're reading this, call me. I'm worried ♥
And, to make things worse, I heard something the other day that I've never heard before. Namine and Pence were fighting. They never fight about anything, but the tension is there. I can see it. They're both trying to act like nothing has happened and that they're fine, but they're not. Neither one of them is taking about it either, I've tried to get it out of both Pence and Nami, and no one is giving me anything :( I feel bad that they're both this upset and that I don't know how to help.
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