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[heartest_fall]

why the fuck am i so insecure? so much that i can't be alone for more than a couple of hours? i can't stand being alone, or sleeping alone. conclusion: my biggest fear is being alone. even though i'll feel all the love in the world, it can drastically change within a couple of hours. sometimes everything just scares the shit out of me. it's

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[thellamailove]

Dick thing to say: It's okay, I forgive you, everyone has those moments where they need me to make them feel complete.

Actual thing I want to say: Knowing a solution to that terrifying feeling of loneliness is something few get to expirience. Though it may scare someone away, and though it might make you feel like knowing that sense of completion is not worth what it will potentially cost you (or what you percieve it to be costing you) you should still be glad you feel it at all. It's the most terrifying of good feelings because it leaves you vulnerable to hurt. Relish the ability to feel completion, because the world is everchanging and so are our emotions, but knowing that sort of feeling is like riding a bike: it can't be unlearned. Enjoy it in those moments you feel it, because if the day comes where you need to look back on it, it will be a great feeling still!

Much love kid, we need to play soon. Sorry if what I said made no sense. <3!

[heartest_fall]

thank you for your words or wisdom, they made sense! i'm a baby, and sometimes i have hissy fits...i just needed to get it out, so i wrote here lol..,plagh.

indeed we do need to hang out. CALL ME! :)

[thellamailove]

Totally understandable--expect a phone call soon!

p.s. What are u up to from like 4:30-6 on weekdays? I'd assume some sort of crazy sporting event-ness, but if you've ever got any free time and wanna come paint or build some stuff (i.e. be a huuuuge dyke with me on stage crew at Ken West) let me know!