Comments | hearthebeauty: am i dumb or just an idiot?

hearthebeauty

am i dumb or just an idiot?

Jul 23, 2004 15:17

ok so i think i've finally figured it out. i think i like to be sad. i dont want to like it, but i think i do. here is my theory ( Read more... )

Comments 6

antarcticabound July 23 2004, 15:39:53 UTC

All I know is I definitely sabotage things, not exactly on purpose. Sometimes you just don't really want the nice boy and it seems stupid and it is and it sucks. At least know you can come over and we can cry together.

hearthebeauty July 23 2004, 16:06:08 UTC

my emma.. you really are the greatest!! <3

antarcticabound July 23 2004, 19:21:15 UTC

embrace the darkness...

jk.

I think everyone has the problem, its part of being a "human piece of shit, cancer on the planet Earth"

without sad theres no glad?

hearthebeauty July 23 2004, 19:44:12 UTC

yah you're probably right. except im not upset that im sad, my problem is.. i enjoy the pain of sadness. that's what i want to fix.. i want to WANT to be happy? that sounds retarted.. but i don't really know any other way to explain it.

anonymous July 24 2004, 19:26:31 UTC

I used to do the same thing! I would get freaked out about becoming too close to someone so I would just not talk to them anymore, or I would get sad over nothing then start thinking about everything else thats bad. But eventually I had to start telling myself to not dwell on the bad things but look at the good, so if you do that itll help you not be so sad over things that cant be helped or changed, but be thankful for the things that have been changed for the better.

Oh and about the pictures...SO annoying! Since when does 2 day photo turn into 2 week photo?!

Okay, I'm done. Bye!

-Deja

hearthebeauty July 24 2004, 22:05:45 UTC

Thanks Deja! I'll take what you said into consideration.. and also, yah the photo thing is just lame, but I did get my pictures yesterday FINALLY! haha.. take care, hope you're feeling better!!