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so i woke up to this sight this morning:
:'))))))))))
timeline of my reaction:
845am: woke up to my alarm, saw the NUS sms waiting on my phone screen. said a split second prayer ("no matter what happens i'm gonna trust You") and swiped to read
845am: saw "1st Class Hons" and immediately got up in bed in shock!!!
846am: dialed papa's number with trembling fingers. i knew he'd probably be busy but i knew he'll understand. he picked up. "yes, anything? i'm in a meeting" "oh just wanted to tell you that i got first class honours -trembly voice-" "OH. beautiful." "ok bye!" :'))))
847am: called mama. don't remember what we said but i hope i made her proud :)
847am: still in shock/disbelief, started tearing "omg i don't deserve such goodness, why is God is good to me, why did I even doubt him before :'''''''''))))" read the sms over and over again to be sure
849am: start smsing (mainly non-NUS) friends. conversations mainly consisted of loads of capital letters and "omgs" and "wtfs" and emoticons! and the mark of a true friend is that they responded in like :):) its true what they say that happiness is doubled when shared with friends :''') so thankful!!!
9am: decide that my heart is racing too quickly to stay in bed. walked to the kitchen. heart still racing. JUMPED AROUND THE KITCHEN IN JOY :D
9plus: resume sense of normalcy, told NUS friends more calmly, ate breakfast. skipped coffee because i think my heart wouldnt have burst
10plus: still talking to friends, everyone did pretty well too :) :) :) papa called me back :)
11plus: calculated CAP online with calculator (still in disbelief/ thought my prof helped me, i.e. my CAP is not actually 4.5 but he helped me round up or something). REALLY IS 4.5. even if i had gotten A- for my thesis.
now: happy, satisfied, grateful. being silly documenting my reaction because i've never felt so happy before my entire life, not in this way. friends know i'm not the type to react with big emotions, i'm usually calmly contented haha but this time...
it was really a miracle. tough upward climb, had many emotional ups and downs and adjusted my expectations so many times, finally got to the point where i truly had no expectations and just had to trust God despite all my hopes/dreams/wishes/fears. so thankful. i don't deserve it, and i didn't "need" it (i.e. God didn't have to give me good grades to prove he was good/faithful), i did my best but i certainly didn't agonize over it, my last semester was the most relaxing of all sems, i didn't earn it because i was smart, i mean, just look at my first year grades.... but still.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23:6 NIV)
:')
:'))))))))))
timeline of my reaction:
845am: woke up to my alarm, saw the NUS sms waiting on my phone screen. said a split second prayer ("no matter what happens i'm gonna trust You") and swiped to read
845am: saw "1st Class Hons" and immediately got up in bed in shock!!!
846am: dialed papa's number with trembling fingers. i knew he'd probably be busy but i knew he'll understand. he picked up. "yes, anything? i'm in a meeting" "oh just wanted to tell you that i got first class honours -trembly voice-" "OH. beautiful." "ok bye!" :'))))
847am: called mama. don't remember what we said but i hope i made her proud :)
847am: still in shock/disbelief, started tearing "omg i don't deserve such goodness, why is God is good to me, why did I even doubt him before :'''''''''))))" read the sms over and over again to be sure
849am: start smsing (mainly non-NUS) friends. conversations mainly consisted of loads of capital letters and "omgs" and "wtfs" and emoticons! and the mark of a true friend is that they responded in like :):) its true what they say that happiness is doubled when shared with friends :''') so thankful!!!
9am: decide that my heart is racing too quickly to stay in bed. walked to the kitchen. heart still racing. JUMPED AROUND THE KITCHEN IN JOY :D
9plus: resume sense of normalcy, told NUS friends more calmly, ate breakfast. skipped coffee because i think my heart wouldnt have burst
10plus: still talking to friends, everyone did pretty well too :) :) :) papa called me back :)
11plus: calculated CAP online with calculator (still in disbelief/ thought my prof helped me, i.e. my CAP is not actually 4.5 but he helped me round up or something). REALLY IS 4.5. even if i had gotten A- for my thesis.
now: happy, satisfied, grateful. being silly documenting my reaction because i've never felt so happy before my entire life, not in this way. friends know i'm not the type to react with big emotions, i'm usually calmly contented haha but this time...
it was really a miracle. tough upward climb, had many emotional ups and downs and adjusted my expectations so many times, finally got to the point where i truly had no expectations and just had to trust God despite all my hopes/dreams/wishes/fears. so thankful. i don't deserve it, and i didn't "need" it (i.e. God didn't have to give me good grades to prove he was good/faithful), i did my best but i certainly didn't agonize over it, my last semester was the most relaxing of all sems, i didn't earn it because i was smart, i mean, just look at my first year grades.... but still.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23:6 NIV)
:')