Things are not all so comprehensible and expressible as one would mostly have us believe; most events are inexpressible, taking place in a realm which no word has ever entered, and more inexpressible than all else are works of art, mysterious existences, the life of which, while ours passes away, endures. -Rainer Maria Rilke

I am wandering around campus beneath trees torn to shreds ( Read more... )

So Im back here in this journal again. I just can't seem to stay away for long, much as I try. Life has been crazy of late and I've used that as an excuse not to write for a while. I don't know what to say because I don't know how I feel, still. This roller coaster is making me nauseous ( Read more... )

So instead of hanging out with the numerous people who invited me out tonight, I'm pretending I'm already in albuquerque and I'm going throught the entire book Boy Meets Boy and writing down all the great lines before I have to give it back to Heather tomorrow ( Read more... )

I'm supposed to be studying right now. I can't help but get distracted every time I'm in the vicinity of a computer. Amazing the affect one person can have on your life. I'm amazed at how five people with such conflict between them can set everything aside, pull together and create such a force of energy. Its incredible. And despite all of the ( Read more... )

Whew. I think I have finally reached normality. Or at least some sort of equilibrium. I've had an epiphany. This changes everything ( Read more... )

Its one o'clock am on Sunday, May 7th 2006. It would have been Randi and my sixth anniversary. I didn't even realize that until I typed out the date just now. It hits me, not like a ton of bricks but like a gentle wave that crashes against the constant turmoil in my heart. I am walking in the dark, writing this in my mind and I am utterly alone ( Read more... )

It does not bother me to say this isnt love ( Read more... )

The weekend was awesome. I didn't realize how much it would affect me to hear my parents say their vows to each other. But it was absolutely beautiful. The ceremony, the atmosphere, the words, all of it was perfect. I even stood up and gave a toast, despite all of my fear. I just wanted to tell them how thankful I am to have such wonderful ( Read more... )

Drops of mist shadow the paper thin sails of my time on earth ( Read more... )