today was really strange. I talked to two people (whom ive never talked to before) and both gave me money and left me with a lasting, but weird impression ( Read more... )

its funny how one of the things that i hated, and never understood is the only thing im waiting for to stop all this fucking madness ( and im talking about money here, not heroin). On friday, at 3.00 i get paid. After i go to the bank, i will get on the bus to lynn and after a short rendeveux with a not-so-close friend, i will have my ticket home. ( Read more... )

things dont turn out how you wanted them to ( Read more... )

sometimes weeks will go by with out you crossing my mind. it feels like weeks anyway. sometimes i feel like i cant go another minute with out you. Like all this time thats passed has just been a trial run and youll be back and ill be in your arms agian soon ( Read more... )

well, once again i have fucked things up for myself, and the people i "care about." It seems like thats the only thing im good at as of late. I feel fucking awful, but it seems like inever learn my lesson. I wish the people i have made feel like shit actually knew how sorry i am. They never will though. They will never read my pathetic online ( Read more... )

I feel like my life is completely lacking direction. All that im looking for is some fucking clarity. My job is the only stable thing i have going and im probably going to lose it, because apparently its impossible for me to not fuck up. I just dont know what to do anymore. I am so sick of waking up everyday not even knowing how i feel or what it ( Read more... )

ohh my favies why didnt i know about you 3 years ago. what the fuck.

i fucking hate everyone. i fucking hate everything i do. fuck fuck fuck. i dont know what i want to do. i just know i dont want to feel like this anymore.
i wish something good would happen for once.

So, i went and got my first tattoo yesterday. Its a pinup girl. Ive wanted it for a long time, so im pretty happy about it.
Then an hour later i went and got another one.
Its a heart with crossbones and it has an "L" inside of it. Liz got one too, but with a "J"

Jackie ( Read more... )