Too many doses & I'm starting to get an attraction, my confidence is leaving me on my own..all alone
"Bat Country"
"He who makes a beast out of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man"
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive all through the night,
the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.
[Chorus:]
Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.
As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction follows me; show me what it's like to be set free.
[Chorus]
So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.
Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die,
we look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by,
don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.
[Chorus]
So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.
Okay so today sucked.
It's all from last night's problem though. I'm not going to go into who it's about or what it is exactly. But it includes a close friend of mine & it upset me. Ohhhh, & don't bother guessing what's wrong, I still won't tell you, fagggggg. But yeah, I cried for a large part of last night about it & had to just keep quiet at school. I wanted to stay home, I still wish I did. I even wanted to change schools until this morning.....blehk. The person says they're fine now & I shouldn't worry, but I do, & I will, there's no changing that. I was upset all day, I didn't smile or laugh, & I usually always do.
Oh, & Alicia is gone for the weekend, she's camping, I wish she was back though, she's awesome. But Ali is always there for me, I love her to death, she tried to make me happy today, tried being the key word.
So far, I don't like school....it was seeming like it would be alright, but I'm thinking I was wrong about it, unless the year ends up being alot different from how it's starting, I already hate it.
I'm going to go...I'm not sure what the point of this entry was, but I guess I felt like updating? POINTLESS. Sorry for wasting your time.