fuck my fucking life. I made stephany upset. I made stephany come all the fucking way out to riverbank for band practice. When she got here. It was over. She's sitting in the fucking cold, because of me. She's sitting in the fucking cold because tino is a fucking prick idiot. Im serious this is really fucking stupid. Im going to have a talk with ( Read more... )

gar. my mom is talking about going to fucking Brazil to spend christmas with my lonely grandparents. Which is like really stressful. I want to go becuase they are really nice and I love them and don't want them sad. But we're supposed to play a show on the fucking 30th, and my mom said we can't go and come back by the 29th. So, theres the dillema. ( Read more... )

another night of motherfucking stress. i swear to god im going to die before this semester is up.

I guess this is what hell must be like, constant stress.

God Damn I feel like a loser.

Sorry for another pitty post, I just need to write.

ok so now the parents are fighting, hip hip at least this time its not at me. what the fuck ever.

-x-

I sometimes feel like a failure. Well, i feel like that, a lot. Like everything I do is just a let down to someone. And I know that a lot of it is just made up stupidity, but i can't shake the feeling that Im just hurting and letting my dear friends down. I can't shake this feeling that my life is going to come crashing down in one big pile of ( Read more... )

Thursday was an ok day, we went to Margarets and me and loni and justin got to hang out, they're such a cute/cool couple, i can't wait for their wedding. Justin is a really nice guy, he's gunna send me his band's demo, and he was all pissed that he can't go to my show, kus they go to school at Chico State. Then my dad was a dick about me going out ( Read more... )

school=lame-being raved by some fag and hanging out with the cutxthroats ( Read more... )

ok so i just heard my NEW favorite band. 4th Til Morning. You can't get them anywhere...yet, but i'm the fucking shit. So with that said, in about a year watch out for them, i swear to you. When they have mp3's up, and when Flinn sends me their demo's and shirts for me to sport, you can talk to me ask for shit. I swear to you. Listening to 4th Til ( Read more... )

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i didnt update all saturday! :-o!! haha. i spent all saturday, well from 10-5, just hanging out at the house taking care of my mom, because she's sick as fuck, and no one was home. So finally at 5 my dad decides to get here, i called tino, he came picked me up and we went to band practice. Ryan was there, he's gunna be our guitarist once this week ( Read more... )