Today was the first day that I've been happy in a long time.

Just thought I would share.

( Crash Into Me )

It gets to be late at night, when Im proud of myself that I havent cried yet during the day.

Then I break down.

This is the first actual holiday that I haven't spent with Chris and his family.

Here are some random ( pictures )

Being in a beautiful place makes me realize some things, I wont talk about them now but I just want to say for the record that I miss Chris. A lot.

It feels as though Im dreaming. All of the time. A bad dream at that. I sit here in my room thinking over and over the things I should have done and the things I shouldnt have done. This isnt the first time, I think these things on a daily basis, at least ten times. They say to live with no regrets, but here I am, everyday living with it. As I sit ( Read more... )

So tonight at work I realized something ( Read more... )

It was a year ago today that I left for France. Its just so crazy how fast a year went by. I can't wait to go back there someday. :)

( Blahhh )

I want the old me back...