Geez, just when I thought I was done with my meds, my doctor calls and says I need to start them again. My thyroid is out of whack once again. I doubt it will ever be good again. So I have to be on meds (forever?). Anyway, I just hate taking pills. Grrrrr ( Read more... )

The rain is known for inducing depression... but what about invoking an internal need to express yourself. It is raining here. It is 32* right now and dropping so the rain will turn to snow. Thusly, my sadness will turn to a child like cheer. Anyway, I have been thinking... a lot.. about everything. I think I am a good person, but somehow I feel so ( Read more... )

But better... Today was ok. I have been in bed for 2 1/2 days due to a wicked migraine. I got out of bed around 3pm, showered and took Brit to a birthday party. Then off to the mall for more local madness. I did some minor shopping, mostly household stuff. The my family went out with Lin's family for dinner. It was nice. We got to meet her hubby ( Read more... )

My hubby is still talking to some girl.. I dont know if it is an ex or what. He says she is an ex co-worker.... But they email and she calls all the time. She lives in another country so maybe I shouldnt worry... or maybe I should.... Im really upset though.. The phone calls happen when I am not around and the emails are private. I have no access ( Read more... )

I am home and in pain. I went to the dentist and now I regret going. Never let Army doctors/dentist work on you. I already knew this and I was solid about not letting them work on me, just do an exam. A quick spin of the chair and dammit they were wrist deep in my mouth. I was like UGHH UMM EOPXCUSE ME? Drilling, pounding, pricking.... then it ( Read more... )

If you know me, then you know that my hubby troubles are deep rooted. He is a proven liar yet I remain faithful to our vows and try not to give up on him. But last night, we were talking about a recent fight and I asked him if he was listening. He said, "yeah to some of it". WHAT? Am I crazy but how can he tune me out and not care? Then he went on ( Read more... )

I was in the gym chaning after pt this morning when this butt naked girl parades through the female locker room. I mean, ok, naked is ok, it is a female locker room. Most people wear a towel though. She is butt naked... and well HOT. So I watched... bad bad Heather. How could I look away? She obviously wanted the attention?!?! Right?!?! Then she ( Read more... )

Although I would like to think I am a good person, I keep ending up in these situations. A situation that seems oh-so similar to one of the past. Ryan has chosen not to change. I guess I should learn to pack my pride and leave.

On a lighter note, my MEB starts tomorrow. YAY soon I will be jobless. FUN.

Somethings you wouldnt know about me...

I saved someone by taking a loaded gun out of their mouth and talking to him for hours...
Even when I am smiling, I am hurting on the inside...
I long for friendship yet have very few true friends...
I am yearning for romance, yet receieve none...
More to come.

We  have about 6 inches of snow ( Read more... )