He said he was going to take over something to the neighbor and be right back. 20 minutes later he is not back and I hear his big ass mouth laughing it up. I listen closer and he is telling jokes and acting stupid. I walk outside and he is outside the neighbors back porch with the neighbors out-of-town female friend. My husband is telling her jokes ( Read more... )

Maybe there is something wrong with me, but the thought of sitting around watching wrestling make smy skin crawl. Ryan insists _ INSANE _ on watching this crap every monday night (WWE) and sometimes even on Thursday nights and even tuesday nights (ECW) and ... well I could go on. But it is 2 hours of pure CRAP. I am sorry if that offends you but if ( Read more... )

Ryan is being an ass this weekend. On top of that now he is texting and sending photos to another female. When I confronted him he went off and told me it was over. But I am wrong. OHHHH

You never looked so good ( Read more... )

Ok so if you don't know Pavlov's Law it is the study of stimuli produced responses. (IE ring a bell when u feed the dog and every time he hears a bell he will think it is food time.) OK OK So here is my case study on Ryan. Every time he gets on-line and spends more than 1/2 hour chatting up some hookers on YahooIM he gets no nookie! Sound good? ( Read more... )

HAHA ok so everyone keeps asking - but NO I AM NOT MARRIEDnor do I have a date to be made such. Ryan may have intended to marry me but he does a lot of things half ass and ecpexts them to follow through. Not me, and not this one. You have to actually prove to me that you want this, not just go get a license and BOOM I say yes... NOT. And on top of ( Read more... )

some ask why the lyrics to songs are full post...??? well i think these songs reveal how i am feeling without me saying a word of my own. if you knew the horror that grew in my mind you wouldnt want to read me. so instead you read lyrics to songs that make sense in a way that you can take it all in.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be ( Read more... )

We finally said our OFFICIAL GOOD-BYES as he put it. I am ok. My life will go on. But wow did we have it out. I dont know what brought us to kicking and screaming when we used to be so gentle with each others feelings. But here we are at the end of this book. It has finally closed. No more friends, no more lovers, no more supposed "just friends" no ( Read more... )

Ryan suprised the heck out of me and took me to get a marriage license today. I am still in shock. What about *B*? Ohhh lord. I feel light headed, I need to lay down. DAMMIT