Over and Over again

[heavenbond]

The concern in your voices and faces made me feel loved but also proved that there was something wrong and that I was sad enough for the world to notice. I don't like the world knowing I am weak and broken but I also didn't have the energy to hide it.  Dustin was also worried. He asked me if he could come keep me company and cuddle with me to make

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A suggestion...

[a1way5imagin3]

I really think that if he's getting so confused because what you say and what you do are so different, that for his sake, you should have some space. Kissing and cuddling with someone you're in love with but isn't in love with you IS CONFUSING! don't be too hard on him. He knows you're in a rough place, but he's too hung up on you to know how to just be there FOR you and not WITH you. He probably figures, "oh, if I make her feel better and she likes being with me, she must be in love with me and being together would be better for both of us!" That's what I would think if I were him. But I don't know him like you do so that's just from what I know of the situation. Whatever you decide, I'll understand. I just hope it starts making more sense for you soon. I'm so excited for your trip to CA!!! That will be soo great! I wish I could come. AK is wonderful, but I can't wait to be home again.

Re: A suggestion...

[freespirit1]

I agree. We all know how difficult it is to give up things that are important to us and that feel good. In the moment we all know this is a great idea, but later on, in reflection, it is not so positive and in all reality, part of the reason that you are getting so frustrated is because he is always questioning what is going on between the two of you, but he can't help it because he is getting mixed signals. It is not fair to either of you. He doesn't know where he stands and you don't get the time you need to really contemplate whether the two of you should be together because you are too frustrated to want to seriously think about it. If it is too difficult to just be friends right now without the benefit of the comfort that he brings you I think that you need to take sometime without him and see how it feels to not have him as any part of your life and then decide what part you want him to be in your life. <3