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I'm back
Returning to LJ after a two year hiatus is a little weird. Other platforms have become very popular, but I kinda miss LJ.
Anyways things I am watching lately:
Nancy Drew
Manifest
Agents of the Shield (Currently on S6).
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What have I become, my sweetest friend / everyone I know goes away in the end
Its been a hard few weeks as the title of my post alludes to. Not really looking to be all woe is me, just need a place to release my sad thoughts. Into the abyss, probably to be chucked back at me. I feel like I'm losing myself in caring for others. I feel so angry all the time and I'm afraid its going to eat me whole one day. But, above all else ( Read more... ) -
New Interests
I have been watching a lot of new shows during quarantine. One is Yellowstone. I really love most of the characters. The scenery is beautiful and it has kevin costner in it.
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Return to LJ
It's been so long sicne I've been on lj. I've primarily been on twitter and tumblr, but I always find myself coming back here because its just not the same. I have hit 30,000 words on Something Beautiful, but I am revamping the story a bit as my writing has matured and we will see how long this second draft will be ( Read more... ) -
New Year New Me
So, I started off the new year with a couple of changes. I cut my hair. It's basically a buzzcut. But, it will grow out and I like how it looks ( Read more... ) -
Happy New Year
I can't believe it is already 2019. This has been a really rough year. My mom's illness keeps getting worse. But, all I can do is help her cope until there is nothing more that I can do. I am however, sick of people telling me to count my blessings. I know that my life isn't complete shit, but I need them to stop trivializing the weight on my ( Read more... ) -
All about me
The last few months have been emotionally and physically taxing. It's getting harder and harder to find a space for just me. I feel like I am losing myself in being a caretaker. Taking care of the kids, my mom, my sister, my students. I just want to curl up and be left alone without anyone calling my name for a full day. So, I've decided to book ( Read more... ) -
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The last few days has been emotionally taxing. Taking care of an aging parent who has an acid tongue and dementia is so hard. I also have nosy relatives who I am about just done with. I've got two of them off and I'll keep adding to the list because I don't need their toxicity. Honestly, today had a cry and husband called from his work trip and it ( Read more... ) -
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This summer has been very relaxing, but a total a flop in terms of getting any real writing done. I just haven't been in the mood. I don't know if its my constant state of anxiety or the lack of desire to do anything substantial. But, I just haven't accomplished much this summer. I also can't tell if I have gained or lost weight. I feel like I lost ( Read more... ) -
Writing, Fandom stuff
It's very late at night on July 31 and I'm only a third into my het big bang entry. I might have to reduce my fic to little bang, but I really want to hit the 20,000 word count minimum. It's just so hard to find the time to write or the motivation. But, in that vein I decided to slowly move over my ffnet account to AOS and I realized that I wrote ( Read more... )