Times like last night I wish I was on meds for my anxiety, I just started crying for no really good reason, its actually quite embarrassing. But I'm good now. I re-took my picture for my id and now I don't look like a crack whore. Woo ( Read more... )

I wish I could please everyone all the time, it's sad how much I do. And how much I think I can ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't know who my friends are, I guess its okay. Maybe I was arrogant to think that I ever really knew who they truly are. I love them, regardless. I hope they feel the same, drifting is sad. I feel displaced sometimes, speaking of, my mom quoted an Azure Ray song accidentally the other day it was rad. I'm going to disneyland in 2 days ( Read more... )

It's hard to feel a sense of "home" when nothing is stable, I suppose its my tainted eyes that make me see the instability as a scary thing. So some of you know I have a new/used room since thanksgiving and yesterday I definately walked into my old room, and got confused and then really sad. I didn't think I would care changing rooms, but I miss my ( Read more... )

Cleaning gives me control.
I'm a little bit neurotic.
love.

I feel like I can't make a right decision. If I go out, I feel like I should have stayed in, if I stay in I'm all alone, always. Everyone can make time go by normally with daily engagements and all I have is school. I could have gone to my friends choir performance tonight but I didn't want to walk there in the dark by myself, and sit in a church ( Read more... )

why am I so emo ( Read more... )

I don't wanna do school work. I keep finding little distractions to not do the essay I need to. Grrr ( Read more... )

tears kind of tickle your cheek
its ironic

I have no motivation to start this "very important paper" that is due next tuesday. And to write it, I will have to do a lot of lying and I am a bad liar. Anyone who has played bullshit with me knows. I've been cold all day, I'm old. I need new yarn to start a new project ( Read more... )