I keep writing in here. I can't really think of anything else. I don't know what to do. I know what I should do, but I don't know if I'll be able to do it.
I'm going to go burn some incense..it helps me relax.

Well, Scotty's been skipping and smoking since he got grounded. And the reason he got grounded in the first place was because of skipping? Most people would have enough common sense to stop after they got in trouble, but not my boyfriend. And dude, it's such a great idea to start smoking again, because hey, it's not like his parents have noticed ( Read more... )

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY BOYFRIEND JESUS I'M FUCKING FURIOUS

I went and helped out at Room at the Inn last night. Scotty gets on my last nerve =/ When I didn't reply to him fast as lightning on Sunday night, he got all mad at me and was like "I was so happy to get my phone back so I could talk to you and you ignore me." Umm are we talking now that he has his phone back? Noooo. What a douche bag.

Soo Natasha got her license today so her and Kyle came to see me C= then Kevin came to get me so he got to meet them. Taj and Kyle followed me and Kev to Smoothie King to pop in on Scotty. We just went in and Natasha made him really uncomfortable, which was kind of funny. It was payback, forreal. Then we separated =[ and me and Kevin went to eat at ( Read more... )

I got to hang with Darius today C=


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 I just found out some information from a dear friend, and I am fucking pissed, to say the least. I've been so understanding about all of this, and look where it has gotten me. I feel even more dumb for getting upset over it. I don't know what's going on, or what I should do ( Read more... )

Well, I got through the most stressful week of my life with flying colors. I'm kind of confused by the fact that Scotty has logged on Facebook various times and seems to be conversing with a few people, yet he didn't bother to reply to my message, hasn't called me, or contacted me in any way. I haven't talked to him in 5 days. It seems that the ( Read more... )

I cannot succumb to these feelings of hopelessness and sadness any longer. They are beginning to get in the way of things. I will get this work done and over with, even if it means losing sleep. And as for him, I will perhaps be able to have that conversation about my confused feelings soon..why he is able to log on the internet and chat with a few ( Read more... )

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