I'm kind of glad that Tumblr spoiled me for this episode with its ridiculous propensity for gifs, but I think I'll be unfollowing the worst offender, all the same.
That was really Farscapey--by which I mean, gritty and painful and realistic and I'm sure I will appreciate this--this episode, this arc, this series--in a big, big way with time and distance, right now I'm just kind of devastated. I'm not crying a whole lot although I feel my tear ducts activating. But, you know, I'm a lot like Brennan in that I'm good with the brain stuff and not so good with the people stuff, and I'm getting better at the people stuff, but I miss chances.
Watching this episode felt like that time in seventh grade when I developed this really intense crush on a boy who began dating my best friend shortly thereafter. He said, I had a crush on you at the beginning of the year, but now I'm dating this other person. You missed your chance. I was stuck there thinking--it isn't fair that I missed this chance when I didn't even know I had it.
So yeah, watching this hurt. I kind of want to punch a wall. But I have faith, mostly because I have an understanding of the way TV works, and I'm sure that within the next ten to twenty episodes (depending on whether they're renewed for a seventh season), Hannah will be offered an amazing career opportunity or involved in investigating some kind of scandal that gets her horribly killed in some way.
And you know, I hope that the next opportunity I miss, I am able to handle with as much dignity and grace as Brennan did.
But I still find it really hard to believe that she didn't know about the upside-down-glasses study. That's pretty much a psychology standard. Even if she thinks all psychology is bullshit, she's still bound to have been exposed to it at some point in her education. Just saying.
Also, I really liked Micah! It kind of felt like he was a hallucination the whole time, which was unnerving. But I hope we get more of him.