Quick update

[hectic_soul]

Well I haven't been in the best of moods lately. This teenage hormone thing is kicking my ass. It's like the world is against me. I dont know why but I feel as if I haven't been happy in such a long time it's sad. I have nothing going on for me right now, and it doesn't help when ppl put my insecurities out there. I guess I am emotionally unstable

Comments

[obliviousdragon]

thats it! Thats the feeling that I got when I was with Smurf that day, affection. Its a really nice feeling, and its horrible when it's taken away. I could say that one day it will come, but I can't tell you when its going to happen. Hopefully it does come soon. Of couse, you've been warned that it might end up horrible like with me. Anyway, later.

[mind_demented]

Everyone wants that, hell even I do to. I may have someone to look forward to seeing but that doesn't mean anything, it's not like he's my b/f. He's not that person that we all look for to make us forget our insecurities and make us feel like the most important object in the universe. he doesn't make me feel special. It may never happen with him but at least i know that eventually it will, my best advice is to just be satisfied with the fact that after High School your just rewards will came. Just make the best of thing by pursuing another kind of passion. Start drawing again, take up poetry, join some sort of thing that WILL bring happiness. That's what I'm going to do this summer, despite my night school, community service, and job/internship hunt this summer, imma try to squeeze in some time to learn how to sew, maybe learn how to sail, or even take an art or creative writing course. You know there is a travel abroud program for high school students and it gives college credits.. FSU is hosting the course.

[mind_demented]

oh yea! the thought just came to me! lol we should also be checking out college campuses this summer! I've already made a list of my fave. alot of them are out of town but sadly two of them are out-of-state. wonder if my mom would let me?? maybe if i had a job to pay for the transport tickets?

[hectic_soul]

Yea. Some how I don't think that taking up something that will bring "happiness" is going to be effective. The only way to be happy is to get the affection I want. I knew FSU was one of my choices. And you forgot to add "work out" in your summer plans. LOL.

[mind_demented]

lol i told ya i plan on working out at home during the summer. it's free :).

[hectic_soul]

Campus visits cost money, that we do not have. And who's going to take us? Remember we got no car.