Comments | hectorjuan: i almost feel sorry for myself

hectorjuan

i almost feel sorry for myself

Oct 21, 2003 23:04

i think i hate everything and myself more than ever. its like i dont know what i want. as soon as everything is right again - everything is wrong again. im a dick. im a prick. i suck. im not fun. im a loser. im a bastard. you hate me. i hate you. i dont care. i hate myself. will call it even. i swear to god somedays i just want to keep to myself ( Read more... )

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jnut October 21 2003, 21:18:37 UTC

how do you define 'good person' hec? by society's standards? our society is so fucked it's entirely ridiculous to judge yourself by any of this bullshit. i know i love, and i know i hate, and i know that neither matters so much anymore. die young and save yourself.

hectorjuan October 21 2003, 21:22:05 UTC

i know that really all i feel is hate or confusion. i tryed the whole love thing and it burnt me bad........maybe i got left behind somewhere. i used to believe in so many good things in this world, now i just see its evil. im starting to think that there is nothing i can do about that except contribute to it. fighting it takes to much out of me.

jnut October 21 2003, 21:27:31 UTC

preach it bro. rise up and bring down the world with you. we are doomed anyhow. fuck life.

a69star October 21 2003, 21:51:37 UTC

love given, but not returned. the curse of the romantic. she doesn't deserve it.

a69star October 21 2003, 21:53:01 UTC

full frontal assault.

anonymous October 22 2003, 09:20:11 UTC

Hector~
I think you are a great guy. But sometimes I think you take the love thing too seriously. You talk like you know all about it and exactly what it is. But I don't think love can be defined until you've found it. And even then you won't be able to say exactly what it is, because you'll feel it and the person you love will feel it and it will be the greatest feeling in the whole world. Cuz then it will be special and only you two will really really know and understand. Thats the kind of connection you need with a girl. One of those deep and philosophical connections cuz thats the kinda guy you are. And you'll find it, there's no doubt in my mind that you'll find it. Because you don't sit back and watch. You make things happen in your life. So keep your head up. Things are never as good or as bad as they may seem.

hectorjuan October 22 2003, 10:39:01 UTC

as far as the subject of love goes, i speak from experience. i firmly believe i feel head over heels. and how do i know it was love? cause i was once told 'love is when you cant eat, sleep, or function cause all youre doing is thinking about that someone.' youre absolutely right it was one of the greatest things ever. how can love ever be taking too seriously? i dont think it is taking serious enough sometimes.