reflections of a 20 year old prophet

[hectorjuan]

this is it. tonight it finishes. this is my last 'live jouranl' entry. im done writing poems. im done writing in journals. im pretty much done writing. it just does not interest me anymore. this will be my last entry

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[a69star]

dont quit hector, we all want to hear what you have to say. you are too talented to stop writing. even if its not public, keep a journal, write poetry, play music.

these thoughts linger in my head, make me sad. make me think of a time it was so much easier.

[jnut]

As I read this wonderful farewell, I was amazed by the wonderful yet bittersweet feelings it brought to my heart and my head. That all too familiar warm liquid shot down my cheek as I worked my way down your list. We truly did have an amazing ride over the up's and down's of this year, working our way through the days, through life as we know it. Feel special Hector, for you made it though the teenage wasteland. The big 2-0. twenty years on this planet. It's certainly been a wild ride. Just shooting back through this summer alone, just think of all the insane, wonderful, depressing, exalting, dangerous, lovely, drunk, sober, and just plain fun times we had. I'll never forget the summer of 2003. It was the summer I learned to love you like my brother Hector. I would die for you, and I know in my heart you would do the same. That is a feeling indescribable even by the most skilled writer. A true friend you can talk about anything, trust anything, do anything with is a divine gift. For one of the few times in my life, I feel truly

Re: these thoughts linger in my head, make me sad. make me think of a time it was so much easier.

[hectorjuan]

always my man. the feelings that you wrote of are mutual. 'all for one and one for all.' the telescope lens will always be looked through with both of 'em crossed and my head tilted towards the skies.

Buena Suerte

[anonymous]

Hector--

In the short months that I have known you, I have been intrigued by you--I guess that whole "you look white, but you are actually Puertoriqueno" thing threw me off. Anyway, your "aura" is stunning, although I took it for arrogance last year (I apologize for that, by the way). I think the confidence that you possess and the ambition that you have is admirable. How many people can say that they have done what you have already accomplished? Yor are an extremely talented writer and an intelligent individual. You are unique in your own way, but that makes you who you are. Hopefully, you will continue to "where your heart on your sleeve;" don't ever let people tell you what to think. (Although, I don't think you would.) Buena suerte, amigo...Se que con tus ganas, llegaras muy lejos en la vida. Realizaras mas que la gente que te quiere suprimir y lo sabes. Hasta pronto. Sabes que estoy aqui si me necesitas (solo unos pasos de la puerta). Quedate con los ojos abiertos y los pies al frente de ti.

~Laura~

Re: Buena Suerte

[hectorjuan]

mucho amor laura. my heart is always worn on my sleeve, and yeah sometimes it gets broke and sometimes it gets hurt, but ive realized two things in life from this experience: 1) the time spent togther is worth all the heartbreak 2) you can never let things bring you down for too long because then you take time away from getting better at other areas of your life. Laura i hope one day you will let me read some of your 'other writings' besides what i read in the vu torch. tu sabes mucho inteligente y mucho amor cual es los qualidades necesario por una buena escritor. that and 'your heart on your sleeve.' in a telescope lens. hector

[anonymous]

hey hector, i havent commented in your journal for a long time now. i just wanted to let you know that reading this last entry left a tear on my check. ive always had this obsession with wanting to be a child again when things were so easy, but reading this made me want to grow up and experience all these emotions you talk about. it was an amazing entry, happy birthday again. and hopefully i'll talk to you soon

[hectorjuan]

i apprecate all the kind words. the ataris said it the best "being growing up isnt half as fun as growning up." the key is to just find a way to deal with it. thanks again.

you probably didnt even know i read this!

[imonfiya4ya]

nice way to go out, hector :)

... but still wish you wouldnt go

*Em

Re: you probably didnt even know i read this!

[hectorjuan]

smile cause it happened. keep playing that guitar though, i think me and jared can show you a few more things now........or you can help me, haha 'burn one down.' awesome, awesome song. thanks emily.