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[heero0]

Well Megan leaves in about 6 hours, i have no idea what to do, what to say how to feel. i mean i am happy as hell for her that she is doing this but at the same time i wish i could of had more time with her before she left, like well i dont know like a year. it makes me wonder what might of happened if i had been the person i am today in high

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[desireemiote]

i guess i have a tendency to try to be every guy's savior when they have a bad line of relationships but then i forget about myself... i forget that thats more of what i need back... like we already talked about, disregaurd of my own needs for another person's is usually just how i work... it's not good but thats why im trying to change. im trying not to jump on a decision. i want so badly to just be able to act on my feelings for one person without having those feelings go numb as soon as i decide. it's like my heart and mind shut off to a person if they get too close... but i think it really is just the time frame... i got too close to dave too fast and so i tend to see relationships going that way right away and that must be why i go numb. i shut myself off to the pain that my subconscious tells me is too inevitable to allow the relationship to happen... i feel though that you are genuine... i really don't feel an upfront threat from you like i do with anyone else after a week... i just have to take some time to get the negative

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[heero0]

"i guess just let me know if you think this will work this way."

Never in a million years did i expect an answer like that. and as i just told you over AIM yes it will work out great.