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To whom it may concern,
I apologize for bursting into your life with a message such as this. Normally I ignore flights of fancy and don't interrupt the lives of those who no longer share- any manner of communication with me. However, I, maybe foolishly, disregarded all this because- something forced me to to be reminded of you. (And I say that without malice, rude intentions or any lack of kindness.) And that little voice, well..you know how this goes. It won't leave until I've thoroughly embarrassed myself in front of you. So.
I'm sure in the long expanse since we've spoken- that you've either forgotten me, as we do with things not presently in our lives, or have ceased to care.
Whether or not my opinion or fact of life is- anything valuable to you.... I felt strongly inclined to act on this..somewhat peculiar notion- to contact you.
Out of the blue...
With an even more unusual message.
Well this sounds dreadful. Even to me.
Anyway.
To be brief ( albeit a bit belatedly ) I wanted to let you know a few things.
Mostly ones which I am unsure that you..ever knew at all.
Firstly, that you were a part of a very important time in my life, and that yours was a lasting impression upon me.
You shared insight, wisdom and even a few words on 'honor'..or as close to it two people can achieve in this day and age.
I always liked your gruff humility- but persistently worried about how frequently you sold yourself short or didn't believe in yourself enough.
In some accidental but unspoken way- you became very much an 'older sibling' within our awkward little band of misfits.
That- your presence and friendship, meant more than I ever will admit.
Please don't think it was nothing to me.
Secondly- Every time you cross my mind, I sincerely hope you are well. Even if it's not my right to worry or care. I gave that up a very long time ago by fading from your life. No 'I'm sorry' can make up for that.
Thirdly- You wrote me a letter a long time ago. I don't think.. No. I know that I never responded to one particular passage. And if anything, I owed you that much. Despite that fact-
...I believed any acknowledgment might be more hurtful than helpful. Or perhaps my words might be misconstrued as a selfish gesture..more than anything else.
But I wonder if you're happy and have moved far enough away from any world that I might reach, disturb or bother... so that I might finally be able to say:
'So did I.'
You were not alone.
Anyway.
Please be well.
Stay out of my dreams.
And stop making me worry.
I have plenty enough people out there questioning my sanity as it is. I do not need to add you to the list.
-Aaron-
I apologize for bursting into your life with a message such as this. Normally I ignore flights of fancy and don't interrupt the lives of those who no longer share- any manner of communication with me. However, I, maybe foolishly, disregarded all this because- something forced me to to be reminded of you. (And I say that without malice, rude intentions or any lack of kindness.) And that little voice, well..you know how this goes. It won't leave until I've thoroughly embarrassed myself in front of you. So.
I'm sure in the long expanse since we've spoken- that you've either forgotten me, as we do with things not presently in our lives, or have ceased to care.
Whether or not my opinion or fact of life is- anything valuable to you.... I felt strongly inclined to act on this..somewhat peculiar notion- to contact you.
Out of the blue...
With an even more unusual message.
Well this sounds dreadful. Even to me.
Anyway.
To be brief ( albeit a bit belatedly ) I wanted to let you know a few things.
Mostly ones which I am unsure that you..ever knew at all.
Firstly, that you were a part of a very important time in my life, and that yours was a lasting impression upon me.
You shared insight, wisdom and even a few words on 'honor'..or as close to it two people can achieve in this day and age.
I always liked your gruff humility- but persistently worried about how frequently you sold yourself short or didn't believe in yourself enough.
In some accidental but unspoken way- you became very much an 'older sibling' within our awkward little band of misfits.
That- your presence and friendship, meant more than I ever will admit.
Please don't think it was nothing to me.
Secondly- Every time you cross my mind, I sincerely hope you are well. Even if it's not my right to worry or care. I gave that up a very long time ago by fading from your life. No 'I'm sorry' can make up for that.
Thirdly- You wrote me a letter a long time ago. I don't think.. No. I know that I never responded to one particular passage. And if anything, I owed you that much. Despite that fact-
...I believed any acknowledgment might be more hurtful than helpful. Or perhaps my words might be misconstrued as a selfish gesture..more than anything else.
But I wonder if you're happy and have moved far enough away from any world that I might reach, disturb or bother... so that I might finally be able to say:
'So did I.'
You were not alone.
Anyway.
Please be well.
Stay out of my dreams.
And stop making me worry.
I have plenty enough people out there questioning my sanity as it is. I do not need to add you to the list.
-Aaron-