Comments | heiderz: "okay, i cant hear you nod your head through the wall. youre going to have to work on that."

heiderz

"okay, i cant hear you nod your head through the wall. youre going to have to work on that."

May 05, 2006 18:13

everything has been great except for this drama with bj. work is pretty good, dance is keping me sane, although it seems as if k-lee has started to take her stress out on me (i dont blame her, i cause stress). school has been ok even though yes indeed i did have to drop my math class (you could have guessed that from day one) and the apartment is ( Read more... )

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sarar May 6 2006, 04:14:07 UTC

maybe it's because I'm not you, but I don't see her taking anything out on you any more than the rest of us unless you forget things, which is very common, especially lately. I mean no harm with that, but it's true. I know you've got crap going on, so that's probably why, but the cause never really matters (not in the "you're stupid that doesn't matter" sense, of course, but the "i'm sorry you've got shit going on but the problem is that you've fucked up 10 times, not WHY you've fucked up 10 times"), it's the effect that's the problem.

psh. if it weren't for post-its we'd never get anything done...and you would leave my knives in the sink.

I can't read the stuff about beej because I can't stand to see you blaming yourself for everything, like you do. if you actually wanna talk to me about it, that's cool. I haven't asked you about it much because I figured if you wanted to talk to me you would. I won't be automatically pissy about it, either. never fear.

standing_apart May 7 2006, 05:51:41 UTC

I've got to agree with Sarah on this, stop blaming yourself. Have you ever stopped and just asked yourself why you weren't 100% happy with him?

I don' know all of what I want, but I'm 100% happy with Kyle because I know he's the one for me.

Now think this out logically, if BJ was 100% awesome and good to you, you would 0 reasons to a)question the ralationship and esp b) end the relationship.
i would say this is more of a 50-50 thing. You both fucked up, and it unlimately ended in a not so good way. So learn from your mistakes, take some time to yourself then find a new boy who is where you are in your life.

You two were together a long time, and you are both still young. People grow up and apart. :/ it blows.

I am sorry to hear about you guys tho :/

heiderz May 10 2006, 03:58:23 UTC

thanks for your input guys. its nice to know im heard.

im not totally blaming myself for the inner workings of the relationship, but i am blaming myself for us breaking up. not because i was doing shit that made us break up, but blame in the sense that when someone says "who did the breaking up" i was the one to blame. if i didnt want to break up, im pretty sure we'd still be together. rocky, but toegther all the same.

i did alot of stupid shit, but he did too. i guess thats all im trying to tellyou two, that im not blaming myself for everything. at least not anymore.

kudos. im growing.