oo1. Flashback
▌Flashback.
▌Prompt → Past tense
▌Pairing → Xander/Kiseop (Told in first person [Kiseop's POV])
▌Rating → PG
▌Word count → 1256
▌Author's note → i'm sorry for the ending, any typos, not enough description, if it sucks, too long, too short, too whatever ;A;
I do really hope you enjoy the fic!
The light from my window shone upon my face. Rolling over to get away from the light, I stretched out my arm to feel the other side of my bed.
Empty. Of course.
Nothing, and more importantly, no one was there.
How long had it been that way? Far too long if you ask me.
I sat up, letting out a heavy sigh in the process.
Every day for the past 6 months and 15 days, all I've wanted to do was lie in bed until the day was done. In fact, if I didn't have to make a living for myself, that was all I would do.
You know, I wouldn't call it state of depression either. I'm done with that phase. Rather, I would call it a lack of motivation.
And why is that? you may ask. It was all because of that jerk.
Okay, maybe he wasn't a jerk to the rest of the world. And hell, even I had no right calling him one. He had the innocence of a child. Some times you could never even tell that he was older than the rest of the UKISS members until he began to nag while still looking after every one. He had his flaws, as does everyone and yet in my eyes, he was perfect. He was one of my best friends. And best of all, he was mine.
Lets take a step backwards for a moment so that you can understand the situation.
When I first joined UKISS, I had an awkward vibe with everyone. You know, new guy meets already tight group, that appeal. I was quickly acquainted with everyone because of their friendly atmosphere. They were a group of people I've never been around before. They made me laugh and loosened up my personality more than I would have ever imagined.
However, that couldn't have happened unless a certain someone had made the first move to introduce himself to me.
Alexander Lee Eusebio. I remember his full name being harder to pronounce than I had thought but he laughed and told me I could call him "Xander" instead. This story probably sounds familiar so I'll just give you the short version. Some where along the way of building our friendship, I began to fall for him. And then of course he fell for my charms resulting in a change in our relationship.
Since UKISS was so close, it wasn't hard to openly show affection for each other without having the other members find out about our relationship. Even something as simple as hugs, holding hands or even falling asleep on each other's shoulders gave me butterflies every time.
It wouldn't be long before the other members found out but that's a story for another day.
We were together for about a little over a year before it happened. UKISS was in the midst of a break to spend time to enjoy life. Dongho needed to complete school and everyone else was doing their own thing back at home. I took up what I've always wanted to do too, photography. They say a picture can tell a story that words can not,
so for a while, that's all I did; take pictures. The pictures I liked to take the most happened to be that of Xander's smile. Something about it was soothing enough to bring a smile across my face too.
I couldn't see my life without him.
... And then it was like God began to test that theory.
An important lesson to be taught here is that as time moves on, things do change. Whether it be for the better or worse depends all on what we make it out to be.
Of course I took the situation for the worse. I mean, he told me he was leaving, and whether he'd be back or not was anyone's guess. Guess he missed his home town, or perhaps he was getting tired of me. At the time, I didn't want an explanation. All I wanted was for him to stay.
Just like that, everything we had together was slipping away. I couldn't even see him go with the tears that quickly blurred my eyes.
The last words we exchanged together were "I love you" that seemed to have lingered on forever in that moment.
As the days went by, I began to tell myself that I loved him. Loved. It no longer became a present feeling towards Xander. At least, that's what I told myself. Lie or not, it was all I could do.
It seemed like I had lost myself. Every day was the same thing.
Go out, snap a couple of pictures, sell them, come home, eat, exercise, sleep.
This brings us back to where I had left off after I had awaken.
You can see why I call him a jerk now, right?
Leaving me in such a state and then having me regret not asking where he was going, not going after him, not doing.. anything.
Six months was long enough. I couldn't just wait for something that may never come back. UKISS would be regrouping soon, with or without all of it's members and when that happened, I needed to be ready. I needed to switch up my life style; get it back to what it used to be.
I got out of bed. As I was getting myself ready, I heard a knock on the door. My mom frequently visits to see how I'm doing, so I figured it might be her. Slipping on my shirt, I quickly scrambled to get the door.
Maybe what happened next was supposed to be expected. Maybe it wasn't.
It felt like I was being toyed with. God's little way of curing his boredom.
Here I am ready to get back out there and there he is showing up at my door.
"Hi... Kiseop." He spoke up, letting out a small smile.
"Xander..." I was too shocked to say anything else. So many questions and thoughts ran into my head at once. I wasn't sure what to say next.
And just like that, all the emotions that I had kept away for six months had flushed back into my life almost as if I welcomed it gladly with a sign and free cookies.
"Can we talk? I know I left you and I don't expect you to listen but I really need... I really want to talk to you," Xander quickly replied, fearing that if he hadn't shoved all that into one continuous sentence I would shut the door on his face.
He began to spill his words with confessions of how horrible his life was without me but that's just details. What I did next not only surprised him, but me as well. When did I become so forgiving so quickly? Emotions can really get the better of you some times.
I cut him off mid-sentence with a hug and a kiss. Having stared at each other for a minute but what felt like an eternity, we shared one quick laughter before I let him into my house, closing the door behind me.
From that day forward, I never woke up alone again.
It's true when they say you really don't know what you have until it's gone. You just have to push through life's little obstacles to get what you truly want.
Oh and by the way, this story? Happened years ago.
Xander and I are still happily together and I really wouldn't want it any other way.
▌Prompt → Past tense
▌Pairing → Xander/Kiseop (Told in first person [Kiseop's POV])
▌Rating → PG
▌Word count → 1256
▌Author's note → i'm sorry for the ending, any typos, not enough description, if it sucks, too long, too short, too whatever ;A;
I do really hope you enjoy the fic!
The light from my window shone upon my face. Rolling over to get away from the light, I stretched out my arm to feel the other side of my bed.
Empty. Of course.
Nothing, and more importantly, no one was there.
How long had it been that way? Far too long if you ask me.
I sat up, letting out a heavy sigh in the process.
Every day for the past 6 months and 15 days, all I've wanted to do was lie in bed until the day was done. In fact, if I didn't have to make a living for myself, that was all I would do.
You know, I wouldn't call it state of depression either. I'm done with that phase. Rather, I would call it a lack of motivation.
And why is that? you may ask. It was all because of that jerk.
Okay, maybe he wasn't a jerk to the rest of the world. And hell, even I had no right calling him one. He had the innocence of a child. Some times you could never even tell that he was older than the rest of the UKISS members until he began to nag while still looking after every one. He had his flaws, as does everyone and yet in my eyes, he was perfect. He was one of my best friends. And best of all, he was mine.
Lets take a step backwards for a moment so that you can understand the situation.
When I first joined UKISS, I had an awkward vibe with everyone. You know, new guy meets already tight group, that appeal. I was quickly acquainted with everyone because of their friendly atmosphere. They were a group of people I've never been around before. They made me laugh and loosened up my personality more than I would have ever imagined.
However, that couldn't have happened unless a certain someone had made the first move to introduce himself to me.
Alexander Lee Eusebio. I remember his full name being harder to pronounce than I had thought but he laughed and told me I could call him "Xander" instead. This story probably sounds familiar so I'll just give you the short version. Some where along the way of building our friendship, I began to fall for him. And then of course he fell for my charms resulting in a change in our relationship.
Since UKISS was so close, it wasn't hard to openly show affection for each other without having the other members find out about our relationship. Even something as simple as hugs, holding hands or even falling asleep on each other's shoulders gave me butterflies every time.
It wouldn't be long before the other members found out but that's a story for another day.
We were together for about a little over a year before it happened. UKISS was in the midst of a break to spend time to enjoy life. Dongho needed to complete school and everyone else was doing their own thing back at home. I took up what I've always wanted to do too, photography. They say a picture can tell a story that words can not,
so for a while, that's all I did; take pictures. The pictures I liked to take the most happened to be that of Xander's smile. Something about it was soothing enough to bring a smile across my face too.
I couldn't see my life without him.
... And then it was like God began to test that theory.
An important lesson to be taught here is that as time moves on, things do change. Whether it be for the better or worse depends all on what we make it out to be.
Of course I took the situation for the worse. I mean, he told me he was leaving, and whether he'd be back or not was anyone's guess. Guess he missed his home town, or perhaps he was getting tired of me. At the time, I didn't want an explanation. All I wanted was for him to stay.
Just like that, everything we had together was slipping away. I couldn't even see him go with the tears that quickly blurred my eyes.
The last words we exchanged together were "I love you" that seemed to have lingered on forever in that moment.
As the days went by, I began to tell myself that I loved him. Loved. It no longer became a present feeling towards Xander. At least, that's what I told myself. Lie or not, it was all I could do.
It seemed like I had lost myself. Every day was the same thing.
Go out, snap a couple of pictures, sell them, come home, eat, exercise, sleep.
This brings us back to where I had left off after I had awaken.
You can see why I call him a jerk now, right?
Leaving me in such a state and then having me regret not asking where he was going, not going after him, not doing.. anything.
Six months was long enough. I couldn't just wait for something that may never come back. UKISS would be regrouping soon, with or without all of it's members and when that happened, I needed to be ready. I needed to switch up my life style; get it back to what it used to be.
I got out of bed. As I was getting myself ready, I heard a knock on the door. My mom frequently visits to see how I'm doing, so I figured it might be her. Slipping on my shirt, I quickly scrambled to get the door.
Maybe what happened next was supposed to be expected. Maybe it wasn't.
It felt like I was being toyed with. God's little way of curing his boredom.
Here I am ready to get back out there and there he is showing up at my door.
"Hi... Kiseop." He spoke up, letting out a small smile.
"Xander..." I was too shocked to say anything else. So many questions and thoughts ran into my head at once. I wasn't sure what to say next.
And just like that, all the emotions that I had kept away for six months had flushed back into my life almost as if I welcomed it gladly with a sign and free cookies.
"Can we talk? I know I left you and I don't expect you to listen but I really need... I really want to talk to you," Xander quickly replied, fearing that if he hadn't shoved all that into one continuous sentence I would shut the door on his face.
He began to spill his words with confessions of how horrible his life was without me but that's just details. What I did next not only surprised him, but me as well. When did I become so forgiving so quickly? Emotions can really get the better of you some times.
I cut him off mid-sentence with a hug and a kiss. Having stared at each other for a minute but what felt like an eternity, we shared one quick laughter before I let him into my house, closing the door behind me.
From that day forward, I never woke up alone again.
It's true when they say you really don't know what you have until it's gone. You just have to push through life's little obstacles to get what you truly want.
Oh and by the way, this story? Happened years ago.
Xander and I are still happily together and I really wouldn't want it any other way.