I wrote somtheing nice...and L.J. made it go away....im not happpy....it makes me miss the power of the pen...for once writen it took some efort to get rid of....not just the random whime of my computer programe...

God ...please...let my foot heal.....i got Pulled out last night and walk all over the fucking place ...when i should have stayed home with it up.......its going to get to a point where i wont be able to work on it.....and all i can do is be pissed off about it....i dont think it "broken"...but i dont know...it just really hurts..so my "birthday ( Read more... )

ok...Well work is actuly fun for right now....i feel welcome...the atmosfeer is positive...or at least better than any thing iv evere known..i still need to write ...but this cloud of bluse still lumes...and $$$ is tight...Got another 2weeks till i get paid...that will be 4 in all...But i do have one more marvin payment comeing...but that wont get ( Read more... )

well I Dont know how i missed this one for almost a month ...but Michael Piller passed on the first of this month....you guys probly dont know who the hell he...was...he was a big part of Star Trek T.N.G.....and that means a big part of my younger days...He also helped many a would be pro writer get there foot in the door...and we would have the ( Read more... )

"Addiction is a compulsion to repeat a behavior regardless of its consequences. A person who is addicted is sometimes called an addict ( Read more... )

Well Finale I have been given Word from the Bureau of Works & Unemployment Compensation. I was amused at the wording of the letter..."The employer listed many accusation against you, but did not submit documents to substantiate the accusation....." i really would of loved to see those "accusations"...all i can come up with is things like ...umm ... ( Read more... )

Well the 2 month mark is comming up....and still im a fucking bumb...with no "job"....i dont know what to do with myself....and my money has not come though yet..I am not feeling well in the head....Brain isnt processing things very well.........FuCkit

ok...so ..let see?? Whats up in my little world? Got my infected tooth drilled out on thursday....Very painful....it was in prep. for the root-canel in JAn. of 2006...so....that ,...and im agian an eas bruser...took a couple of hits to my are 4 days ago...and recived NOW the worst Bruse iv ever had...it really bad...i dnt know...havnt goten paid ( Read more... )

Icant belive it is this late/early....Iv been stuck....in my head most of the evning...manic/angry if there is such a thing.....i know i have a real problem here...and it not my lack of job....boerdom....or this shite little town I live in....it could be somed up to 2 things....1...Fear...not fo failer like most would suspect...but fear of success ( Read more... )

Sometimes.....things continue to cycle....like gearing cogs doing there work....but at times the spinng is more like a spiraling fall..... or some kind of machine of gears within gears.....