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This has been the most horriblest weekend of my life.
I split up with Andrew, my heart aches i feel so bad, all i basically do is cry, i don't know what to do or what to say, every thing i look at its a reminder of what we had and now its all gone, i keep wondering if its right, or was it stupid to end what we had, but we just kept slipping further and further away it got to the point where we hardly ever saw eachother we were lucky if it was once a month, we hardly spoke on the phone. And i know its my fault it come to an end, i was the one that got a Job that took up all my time, i had to decide to end it and i cant deal with this hurt, i hurt so much, and no-ones here to comfort me im on my own most of the time, yesterday was fine because i was with Jenni all day and she stayed over but then she went this morning, mum's at work, sis is at dads and Ashley and Melanie are gone on holiday, Eddy, you're great thanks for being there for me, its times like this when i really need my friends and none of them are here i have to deal with it all on my own, all i do is cry, he ment alot to me, he still does and i hurt and i hurt even more cause i know i caused it all to happen. People keep saying Dont worry, you'll be ok, you dont need him, you'll be fine, but i dont think that it will it'll never go away i wont get over him. And it hurts more cause he says we can never be friends, its like we've gone through all of we've gone through then its all over in seconds and never to talk ever again, so here i am with no one here my biggest fear being all alone when i need someone and its happening and i dont know what to do, i fell so awful, i didn't want to hurt him ever and in the end i did, and i hate myslef for it.
And yesterday i got my purse stolen by this drugged up junkie i confronted him and asked for it back he said he didn't have it but o woman saw him take it so i followed him and kept aking him to give me it back but he kept insisting he didn't have it then he turned round and i saw it through his bag i said you do have it i can see it through your bag he said no no thats just my messages and he started to talk to this guy in a car i told the guy in the car but he just sat there, so i kept asking for it back i was so tempted to just kick the living daylights out of him with the way i was feeling but "did he have a knife or something" was running through my mind, in the end he ran away from me and i never got my purse back, there was only £3 in it wasn't much i know but it was my hellokitty purse..