when i saw my dad today at my aunts apartment. I already knew that something was up. Later while on the mini bus he told me that my grandmother's liver function has a 20% chance of recovery. The first thing I thought of was, what does that mean? what does that percentage mean. what does any percentage mean? The doctors still don't know how long ( Read more... )

My grandmother is finally out of the hospital, but we don't know for how long. It could be a few weeks, a few months, or 1-2 years max. The surgery as I see it, is just my grandfather's bargain with the devil. I think saving her life for a extra few years is really for his sake and not hers. I was thinking about when he was really upset he was ( Read more... )

its such a strange feeling. when you prepare yourself for someone to go and then suddenly that person doesn't you get a really confused feeling. Its like a combination of anger, relief, annoyance, worry, and joy. I am not angry and annoyed that my grandma has not died yet, but I guess when you have to pass through all those painful stages of grief ( Read more... )

I talked to my aunts about my grandma. my grandma's alseep right now. for the most part she looks about the same as yesterday. i figured she must be getting back to normal maybe shes not leaving so soon. then i talked to my aunts and they told me not really that she only has 3-4 weeks to live. you hear that phrase a lot on drama but it's so weird ( Read more... )

My grandma's kidneys and liver failed last night. she's stable now. of course they would of failed last night though, it was friday the 13th after all. and of course i had to jinx myself when Marianne was commenting on her bad luck with the computer today b/c it was friday the 13th and I had to say well nothing has happened to me yet. The wood ( Read more... )

a part of me feels guilty for going to work but if i don't I might make my grandma or my grandfather suspicious of my grandma's condition (they don't know much esp my grandma she doesn't even know she has cancer or that we burned part of her liver). I go and its tiring me out. I wake up at 630 go to the hospital for 45mins then get to work by 915 ( Read more... )

My grandma is better she should be getting out in a few days. Her liver is still not improving but is what i overheard but they won't know for sure for a while. I seriously like her so much better high. my grandma being herself is so hard to talk to. shes so closed off. i try to think of things to make conversation but she just doesn't really ( Read more... )

damn been so busy i never got a chance to continue to blog so my grandma has been doing better with her asthma. they gave her some drugs so and she is breathing better. lately she has been having a lot of hallucinations and stuff. my aunt told me its from the amt of steroids that the doctor has been giving her for the asthma. I didn't think ppl ( Read more... )

I decided to blog about my personal life while i'm here. Since i'm basically friendless there are no peers i can turn to to talk about my personal life. I have new coworkers but since this is only my second day we are still distant and also there is also the weird relationship. So I need to find somewhere to let go of my fustration and fears. So ( Read more... )

The book I read for class as a freshman is going to become a movie! I remember this book because we got to choose from a cart of books and i chose this one because it had a pretty cover. well to be honest it was black with blue text. So basically i chose it because it had pretty typography on the cover. Turns out it was about this kid who murders ( Read more... )