I guess i really should go into counseling again. I can't seem to muster up the urge to do work. In the beginning of the school year i had the drive and i kicked ass. well lets be honest, i'm still kicking ass. despite my current lack of effort my teachers (for the most part) think that i am putting in effort. I think this is for a few reasons: I ( Read more... )

Its been difficult for me to keep updating my lj. Not that anyone is reading but Its strange how it use to be important to me. I looked forward to blogging and writing down my daily mindless bs and now its almost like i do it as if it was almost a chore. I guess i'm not sure what to say. I don't lead a particularly exciting life in my opinion. Well ( Read more... )

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Boring day basically stayed at home doing work. I have a lot of shit to work/catch up on. despit ethe crazy boringness i was really happy today. Its a weird feeling when you haven't felt what happy is in so long.  I mean i thought I was relatively happy until the moment i smiled today. Suddenly everything is all right. I don't know what got into me ( Read more... )

I find it curious that i need so much sleep lately. I'm not sure why. maybe its because my stress level is rising. It amazes me how I can very easily sleep through construction now. Before it was the thing that woke me up and now I can barely realize that they have already started. I'm growing to like my apartment more though to be fair it wasn't a ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARRIE!!!

Much Love To You On Your Birthday! GO GET YOUR PARTY ON!!

To my first dead plant. I didn't know when you died but I'm sorry I failed you. I promise I tried to keep you alive but my plant doctor, Carrie,  has told me that you have been a gonner. I did not favor you more than all your plant friends and hopefully next time I'll do better with your replacement. I hope your time here with me had been worth ( Read more... )

Today I did my punk look for my unfashion class. i had a mohawk and dress slutty. So I felt self conscious in the beginning again and as i went home i started to care less though once again i got a bunch of hollars from construction men. gross. well at least i got the mohawk out of my system always wanted one and i finally did it... i don't think i ( Read more... )

Right now I am procrastinating again while I read this incredibly boring, long, confusing article for my intro to design class. I've currently read about 30 pages and I still have little to no clue what the guy is talking about. I believe that (a) I am just stupid and no very edjumakated or (b) that this is a very educated man who does not know how ( Read more... )

So today was my test run of my second outfit. I was so nervous walking out of m y house b/c i bascially looked completely over dressed. mainly i had a ridiculous hat on. When my teacher uploads the pics u guys can take a book at them. god I was like totally shying away from everyones gaze but My hat had feathers veil you name it. i had to run ( Read more... )