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[helle_d]

So, I started to write this, and it suddenly took a hard left turn into medical TMI and a long-winded attempts to get My Thoughts On Achalasia*, And Specifically Where I Am Now, a year after my operation, down on virtual paper - as such I wrote it mainly for my own benefit, and it is very stream-of-couciousy and rambly and tl;dr.

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[frith_in_thorns]

*hugs you* Oh, honey. That all sounds most irritating to have to deal with. I'm totally here for listening, whenever you want. I can totally empathasise about denail.

And you're pretty fucking awesome, just so you know what my conclusions are :)

[helle_d]

Thank you *big hugs back* Irritating is the word - much better something be chronic and irritating than painful or seriously inconvenient, but still, arrgh.
And yeah, denial. If we bought a small beach hut in Egypt together, by the river, we would at least have better weather for denying everything.

[littlered2]

*hugs* I am extremely glad that things are improved and you're not in pain. I hope they improve even further, but feeling that you could cope in this state forever is great - that's all any of us wants, really. Yay for modern medicine! And for you being able to write all of this in a calm way, which is excellent. (Self-blame is so shit, isn't it?)

"Failure to relax" makes you sound like Miles Vorkosigan and need to be sat on periodically. I am amused. xx

[helle_d]

Aw, thanks ... Self-blame is the shittest, and it's so easy to fall into, I think particularly for introspective people. Modern medicine is so cool - I read an article yesterday (which I do about twice a year, I hardly ever feel like seeking further information) entitled "Treating achalasia: from whalebone to laparoscope" about 300 years of treatment practice, starting with pieces of whalebone and ending up at keyhole surgery - I am always in awe of the things doctors can do nowadays.

I'm not sure sitting on Miles would do anything to make him relax, though ...

[littlered2]

Whalebone? As in, poking it down the oesophagus to widen it, or something else unpleasant-sounding? Good thing you live now. (And yes, modern medicine is great. I said yesterday, àpropos of nothing, "Isn't it great that we've discovered antibiotics?". Because seriously, without them things would be so awful.

You might be right there.