well, another birthday come and gone. i almost forgot i was 20. yesterday wasn't a bad day tho. it started out wonderfully. i got to wake up to cherie's beautiful face, and that's always a plus. but then i had to leave to go take a calculus test....on my birthday...that sucked really bad. the rest of the evening was good tho. i got to eat susht :D ( Read more... )

ok, i really think something's wrong with me. why can't i ever get it right? why do i fuck up everytime i make you happy? why do i always say the wrong thing? why can't i keep you happy? this is why i think i'm an asshole. you are so wonderful to me, and i can't go two weeks without fucking up. i'm a dick.

man, this was the first week of school, and that class sucks. its soooo boring, but i guess at least i'm learning and understanding finally. gosh i miss cherie. i wish i could just go over there right now and hold her in my arms. i can't wait til i get to see her again. went job searching, it took 2 hours to finish applying at target, and i have ( Read more... )

i can't believe it. how big of a fuck up do i have to make before i learn from my mistakes. I've offended cherie again. the one person that iwant to spend the rest of my life with, and i've pissed her off royally, and made her not trust me. my lack of explanation, and my stupidness of words completely exceed all thoughts i had of my previous ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend was definately good. friday night we went to louisa's camp for cherie's birthday, that was really fun. i'm kinda glad it was just a few of us close friends, i'm not much for huge gatherings. me and cherie stayed up til 8 am, but you don't need to know what went on for those extra 4 hours ;). anyway, i got to spend a good bit of ( Read more... )

ok so here i am at the lame-ass dorm waiting for my next lame-ass class...this weekend was truly amazing. i had cherie all to myself for 3 full days. that was truly wonderful having her there like that. it re-affirmed my feeling that i want that for forever. she is an amazing girl :). that concert was really awesome. 7 out of the 8 bands there ( Read more... )

Your Love Style is Agape
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ughh...i freaking hate calculus...in fact i freaking hate school. but i have to do it...damn it. i really miss Cherie. i didn't get to go see her because of this stupid test. but i get to go see her tomorrow :) i'm really glad for that. she really feels right. i feel forever in her debt for forgiving me. she's an amazing person, and i've ( Read more... )

You Are Emerald Green
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well, its a start. i can't expect instant satisfaction, and i know it will take some work, but for her, i'll do anything. i would walk a thousand miles for her. she is the love my life has needed all along. i don't intend to screw this up a second time