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[hellocurious]

I spent part of my morning reading through every old entry I'd made in this journal. I was looking for clues - secrets to my weight loss success. And really, what I found was pretty much what I'm doing now. Not much has changed. I'm realizing that my relationship with food is complex and frustrating and a huge source of my weight loss problems. I'd

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[jaleco]

I'm a big advocate for loving yourself and being happy. If you are happiest and love yourself best when you are skinny DO IT! Who fucking cares what others think? It's your life and your body and you aren't anyone's posterchild for anything.

I love myself and am happy as is, but I know I am getting older and it is unrealistic to know I can keep on as I am without repurcussions. I am hoping to lose 65 to get down to 200. I fell like 200 would be an ideal weight for me. I LOOOOVE food, and I LIKE having a big butt and hips and a little extra weight on me so getting skinny just doesn't appeal... but I need to be stronger, healthier overall and I need to shake some of this weight before it does too much damage. I already notice my knees are a lot less happy than they used to be.

Funny how 200 can be a horror story for you and an ideal for me haha. Also, please don't feel like you make me feel badly! You do not! I think you are amazing and inspirational. You work hard for what you want.

I hope you get the job! <3

[hellocurious]

Thank you for all of this! I'm so glad you're in a good place! Numbers are weird, they're so arbitrary! 200 represents a loss of self control more than anything else.

I LOVE food too, it's crazy! Haha. And I like having thick legs and booty for DAYS. But my biggest wish is just to have less of EXTRA. I want to be streamlined and super effective for my workouts. I'll have to get surgery to deal with all the excess skin and stuff, but in the meantime, streamline = weight loss!