I'm getting my braces in six more days if you count today. I'm nervous. I wish I were more enthusiastic, or maybe I should keep my focus on the end result. It seems like my mom wants it more than, I though. That doesn't help. I imagine it would be harder to approach people with them. Eh ( Read more... )

Insecurity has been pestering me a lot lately. I've honestly been resorting to food for comfort. That disgusts me, and I decide today that I'm going to try to promote a healthier lifestyle for myself. I can't depend on hope for myself to get better anymore. I suppose it's time to take matters into my own hands ( Read more... )

It seems like whenever I'm not occupied by something, I'm always thinking of starting out at a new school. I wish I were braver, and I do try to persuade myself it's no big deal because it's not.

I've also been doing things for the past few months that I remember telling myself I'd never do.

I need to start giving a shit.

I wrote a really short verse a couple of days ago.

I wish I was skinny cause I'd eat a lot of pies.
Have your toothpick be as skinny as my thigh.

I wish I was skinny cause I'd wear tight clothes.
Go out out in public, lookin' like a ho.

I want thin fingers, for picking locks.
I want my eyes to look like clocks.

Don't you ever just feel you can't express yourself with words, but only with actions sometimes? No matter how much you speak, your feelings always seem to fluctuate and you just feel like you need to speak more, but the speaking still isn't enough.

I need to do actions. Actions now. Actions right now.

( I feel shitty )

I just came home from sitting in the sun for over two hours. I forget how much I fucking hate graduations until I come to one again. Shiiiiit. I was thinking of going to Lucy's graduation, but eff dat. Stupid, stupid sun. You prevail ( Read more... )

June 18th 2007, 12:42 AM ( Read more... )

STUPID ITUNES WON'T PLAY THE STUPID FUCKING RADIO ( Read more... )

I hate when I am reminded of "how lucky I have it".

Because it makes me feel like I never have a valid reason for feeling something other than happiness.

I know the reason for it being is to keep me grounded.

But it doesn't work that way.