My grandma is still in the hospital. They've tried twice before to fix her. Third time is the charm I guess.

Migraine = bed. now.

I just want to go home. I hate sitting here at my computer, listening to people I don't want to hear, doing things I don't want to do, and just feeling shitty. I just want to go back to michaels way, sleep in my bed, lounge around my house, and get my shit together. This is not the time in my life when I need to be moving to a new, weird place. I ( Read more... )

My day was OK I suppose, I woke up, went to the hospital, then went to ellicott city to get ready and leave for the show. We played well I think, and got a free copy of it, which we may sell since it came out pretty good. We hung out with Archie from driving in silence, he's amazing. What a fuckin rockstar man, that guy knows what's up. And he ( Read more... )

It's funny how much can change in a few days. I wonder where I'll be after a few more...

I wish I could accelerate time.

My mom called me at work today, to tell me my grandmother had a heart attack. She's in the hospital now. I just talked to her on the phone and she sounded really weak and quiet ( Read more... )

I need to get my shit together, ugh. I skipped two classes today, probably two of my most important classes. FUCK. Before I went to work today, I decided it was time for a change. I'm sick of my hair defining me as a person. So yes, I cut it. I can hear it now "AW man! What the fuck! You're LAME!" shut up. You didn't have to live with it. You didn' ( Read more... )

well, it took everything I had in me, but I separated myself. It's the healthiest thing for me right now. As much as it kills me to say that. But then again this whole thing kills me. I will be a living void for a while. get used to it.

Well, another tuesday of jazz with her. This is not healthy for me. Oh and she said I'm not communicative. Correct me if I'm wrong, but if you're not happy in a relationship, shouldn't you..I dunno, act differently, say something, DO SOMETHING. THAT IS NOT COMMUNICATIVE ( Read more... )

seriously, name me one person who's in a worse place than me. And why does everything remind me of a time in my life when I was happy. time to run off a fucking bridge.

This is the first time I've contemplated personal damage. I know, pathetic, cry for help, blowing smoke, whatever. You're right. And this is not a call for attention ( Read more... )