I guess I'm not walking with you guys.

If I could find my way back home, where would I go ( Read more... )

Please be ok.

I really just don't fucking know.
man this sucks.

So tommrows my birthday, and honestly i feel good about it. I feel like its going to be one of the few years everyone stays alive haha. i mean i could be wrong, i wouldnt be that suprised, but I'm thinking it will all be good.

I have nothing to look forward too.

in 24 hours, i will be on a stage infront of thousand of people in tampa, the same stage where phantom of the opera is put on. My stomach is eating itself, im gonig to throw up.

Theres a part of me that nows what I'm doing is really stupid, and i guess a part that doesnt care.

I'll pay for it.
Sooner or later, it'll end jsut the same.

I can only hope to be stable one of these days. haha. (sorta)

I've sometimes wondered, how much i could take, before it got the best of me.
I guess i know now.

It's become so obvious
You are so oblivious to yourself