The most F'd up thing, EVER!

[hellscook]

So, Scarrie is in the UK, meandering around Scotland until next Saturday, leaving the boy and me to fend for ourselves. It's weird not being able to pick up the phone and call her, for better or for worse... Regardless, I'm getting a lotta work done at the house, and getting the front hallway painted and all the christmas stuff put away, so that's

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[magpiefirefly]

Loss scares the shit out of me.

My future sister-in-law gave me a book that I thought was going to be all Danielle Steele Mush, but it wasn't (the book is The Pact by Jodi Picoult)... it was about teen suicide, and losing the one person you are made to be with, and other horrible things that make me think of how easily life is lost every single minute of every single day. Then I lay awake at night, needing to keep a hand on Dan, for fear that tomorrow could change everything. I go to work and hug my charges until they get pissed off about having too much attention. You never know.

[neugotik]

I think when a newborn goes, it's more about losing the dream/the life you were looking forward to & didn't get. When you lose someone you know well it's that hardship of not being able to hug and talk anymore. Funerals are pretty bad. My family's so weird, when my little bro died at 23 (in an Avalanche) my grandma called for everyone to cheer him (kinda a family tradition) but we all belt out our cheers -- - so there's 50+ people in the funeral home yelling "hip hip horray hip hip horay" at the top of our little lungs/ so loudly you could hear it down the halls. I bet it would make my brother fall over laughing to know we did that. I still kinda wonder what others in the funeral home were thinkin' though.