It's been a while.

Things are good.
A nice good.
The peaceful kind of good.
The 'no worries' kind of good.

except for those few fleeting thoughts...

I don't think there's anything left.

and I don't know whether to be greatly relieved or foolishly upset.

the movies make love seem so easy.

Boys are tards.
End of that story.

I seriously considered becoming a nun today.
Seriously.

And then I laughed.

I'm tired of people telling me what I like.

Worse yet, what I think.

Because last time I checked, I was the only one inside my head.

Therefore, I can only come to one conclusion.

I know what I want, what I like, and what I think (all pertaining to life, not material things), which excludes everyone else in the.whole.wide.world.

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This post is more for myself than anyone else.

I just need to see it written. And final.

I want to be a good person.

And I will be. Starting  now.

I swear.

Finally. I found myself.

And then he came along like rain.

Rain on my parade.

I guess it's in my favor, I don't mind rain.

They always come back. Always. But only when they need me. And then they disappear all over again, just like the rain.

The same cycle.

over

and

over.

You think I'd be used to it by now.

At least I know who I am.

I've lost sight of who I am and who I'm striving to be.

There's been a total regression of the changes I was making for the better in my life.

And I feel I've dissapointed more than just the people around me.

I've dissapointed myself.

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I'm aching with exasperation.

What am I looking for?

...I just don't know anymore.

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