Alright.
Still want to cry.
It's STUPID that I want to cry because 1) Sam's right the Hell there, we just have to find out HOW, and 2) it's a damn TV show.
Yeah, Sam died. Again. This time there's nothing Dean can do to fix it. He does what Sam wanted him to do because he couldn't promise Sam that and he doesn't know what else to do. I think I want to cry because of what Dean's going through. I dunno. But Sam's RIGHT OUTSIDE and he doesn't know.
Sam isn't dead for real. He'll be back next year. This episode has highlighted, more than ever, that the show has always been about them. The montage, the story of the car in their lives, etc. He'll BE back. It's not the Show without them. If this was the series finale, I'm about 90% sure it would've been them both dying or both living (there's still that 10% chance that Kripke's that much of a bastard to have left the series at THAT SCENE, leaving it to us to decide if Sam's alive or a ghost, if they'll reunite, if they'll hunt again, etc.).
So. Chuck is God. That's amazing. Never saw that coming. And if there's one thing we know about Chuck, it's that he loves those boys. Truly. God needed them to save this world, even if they told everyone to fuck off because they were going to do it their way. And they did. And humanity is spared. He brought Castiel back again, with full strength. He'll reward Sam and Dean the same, bringing them back together. You know it.
I just need to see the boys reunite. I need that and I'll be okay.
But until then I'm gonna download the episode when it comes up and cry a good cry whenever I want because I damn well will. I barely held it together tonight.
God I'm such a baby.
DAMN YOU, SHOW. You're perfect, I love you. BUT DAMN YOU.
I need to do a real update sometime.
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