Apparently my "innocent question" has created a slew of thoughts and feelings for one of my friends. I am extremly sorry for that. I apparently did not know the domino effect it would have on her emotional well being. I would never bring something up like that if I thought it would make someone feel so bad about it. I know how hard it is to ( Read more... )

Thoughts............I still don't know what I want. I've come to the realization that I am so tired of this relationship. I don't know if that has to do with the depression or not but that is how I feel. I have also been thinking thing out and I'm tired because I feel like ever since we have been together it has been nothing but an uphill battle ( Read more... )

Well since I have called him back and told him that I wanted us not to be over. I told him I think that we should take time to reevaluate our relationship and leave the wedding on hold. I have taken off my ring. He told me that he doesn't need to re-evaluate this and that he knows he wants me I just have to decide what i what. I told him I ( Read more... )

Is there something wrong with me. Now I am thinking again about the wonderfull effects of alcohol and drugs what joy they bring from this firey pit of hell (depression) that I can never seem to keep out of. Its like keeping a duck from water its impossible he will strive to find that water. I feel like that with my depression. It ruins me and ( Read more... )

StrFshCtchr [8:17 PM]: omg ( Read more... )

So...this trip has been less than to be desired so far. My mom and I got in this morning about 4am and unpacked and went to bed....well when I went to bed my cat luke came up and started purring so I was petting him. I started to rub his stomach and grabs a hold of my hand and arm and bites me and scratch me so now I look like I have punched ( Read more... )

I'm making a trip to VA a very short one but it will be one. Dec 3 I will driving back with my mom and the Dec 6th I'll fly back so I only have a couple of days but I am going shopping possibly snowboarding and seeing someold friends. I'm goin to get away from all and think about some things that have been bothering me latley

went through some depression the past few days....I wrote a whole speeel and the damn thing erased and my computer cut off so I guess it wasn't meant to be in my journal. I am out of the depression THANK GOD. and trying to minister to a friend who has been there too. At bible study tonight we are learning about David " a man after God's own ( Read more... )

I've been have some mad insomina. I don't know why either. I know I've been stressed out but everytime I try to go to sleep my mind turns on and starts goin ninety to nothin. I have bags under my eyes that are turning into dark circles. ahhhhhh........I had the Dr. check me out today because the past 2 nights I've tried to go to bed I have had ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about some past "experiances' lately not sure if I am yet healed from them. But I was also thinking about how awesome is God to keep those people out of my life for the while that I WAS healing and then kind of easing them back in my life so I can carry on with mine. I think this person still has a place in my heart only ( Read more... )