amuse me no. but it was foolish to ever think yourself as more than human. Humans by nature are social animals. I have arrempted to withdraw myself from life whne the teasing go to bad but you find yourself coming back even to abuse. Friends may cloud what you want to do but you need a will to keep working then once you are finished to relax. remember Frankie says:RELAX.
Birds fall from the window ledge above mine then they flap thier wings at the last second I can see thier dead wieght just dropping liek stones towards small loaves of bread pat my window all the time. But unless i get up walk across the room and peer down below i don't see thier last second curves towards horizontal flight. Now due to a construct in my mind that makes thier falling and thier flight symbolic of my entire existance. Its almost as if my lif will fall if i don't se thier accent.
I don't know if this is something you all just don't get, or if you get it and you just don't care. I am biochemically incapable of "relaxing," and no matter how much I WANT to relax, that cannot be changed. If it's so unacceptable to any of you that I'm such a nervous wreck all the time, then just stay away from me. I'm not trying to pick on Danny right now. I'm touched that he posted here, and was able to relate to me. I just have a strong general frustration with people always telling me to relax. I am miserable with the function of my mind. I don't enjoy being anxious and gloomy. I don't take pleasure in making myself unacceptable. I just can't change.
no really michael brendon i dont get you. you say you're so lonely but you distance yourself from the people who you call ur best friends. and im most definatly not the only one thats noticed this. you have changed, it seems that you are TRYING to retreat back to the antisocial body you were back in early middleschool. Great. fanfuckingtastic. do what ever. -j.
it seems like you get me perfectly. you need to realize that the fact that i know you're right is making me even more angry. if you really meant "do what ever," you wouldn't be leaving this kind of message.
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Birds fall from the window ledge above mine then they flap thier wings at the last second I can see thier dead wieght just dropping liek stones towards small loaves of bread pat my window all the time. But unless i get up walk across the room and peer down below i don't see thier last second curves towards horizontal flight. Now due to a construct in my mind that makes thier falling and thier flight symbolic of my entire existance. Its almost as if my lif will fall if i don't se thier accent.
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