Today I gave David relationship advice for a second time. It's really interesting that I can do that, but I am happy with Adam, and my heartache has eased tremendously ( Read more... )

Adam has to work on Valentine's Day. He has to close, so that pretty much cancelled all plans for Valentine's. So last night, partially due to that fact, and partially because I always try to give presents away early, Adam and I exchanged our Valentine's Day gifts ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a bit better now. I just have some bad moments. I guess I had a lot of those moments yesterday. Anyways, I have to go to the observatory tonight for class. Hopefully it will be interesting, although I hope it goes by quickly. If not, I may leave early. I have a good chance of seeing Adam tonight, and I am super excited about it. I haven ( Read more... )

When I lose 17 pounds, I will buy myself some new clothes...
Now I just have to stop eating...
lmao

I want more comments.
Maybe I need to find more friends on LJ...

I had a good weekend. Then I went to counseling today. It is going quite well. It's really helped me a lot to have someone to talk to, and the whoile experience has been quite different than that BS baptist counselor I went to a year and a half ago ( Read more... )

I talked to David yesterday. And after fighting, and me crying, for about an hour, we actually had a conversation. I missed him, I still miss him. But we talked about his new g/f Cheryl. I hope he is happy. She seems a lot like me, but better. She has a beautiful voice, and can sing him to sleep. I'm sure she must be prettier too ( Read more... )

Well, I believe it is safe to say that David hates me ( Read more... )

I've calmed down from this morning. I needed that rush of good feelings though. The past two days have been up and down for me, and the down usually happens when I start missing David. I hope that he doesn't honestly hate me. I keep telling myself that it is impossible to hate the girl that he wanted to marry and to spend his life with. But I don't ( Read more... )

garbage or not, it feels so good to write again