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I just, HAVE to tell you about my Valentine's Day. But first a little background info. If you're on my confessions____ friends list, you already know this
These past few days have been crazy, I swear. I hadn't even really remembered that Valentine's Day was coming. I don't have a boyfriend this year to worry about getting something for, or doing something special. So basically I just went about my business as usual. Well a couple nights ago, Saturday night I think, after I'd gone out bowling with Steven and stuff, I came home and for the first time talked to Paul online. Now that this is totally out in the open, I can write about this stuff here. Paul is the guy I have a mad crush on. It was totally an accident too..but I guess that's how it goes. Using old journal entries I tracked it back to December 1st; that's when I started liking him. Anyway, I totally kept it a secret because Paul was, at the time, Chris' roommate (he's since moved out of The House), and still is one of his best friends. Since I had my little "thing" with Chris back in October-November, I felt weird about liking one of his friends. Needless to say I've had bad experiences with that. So I kept my mouth shut. Well, almost.
I told Snoopy about my crush, and I wrote about it in confessions____, which includes people that don't know anyone that knows Paul, so I wasn't worried. Other than that, it was pretty much not talked about. Well, someone decided it would be a good idea to hack into that journal. Within a few hours, EVERYONE at The House knew I liked Paul...of course, including Paul. I was mortified and proceeded to almost totally avoid Paul for weeks. I also denied it being true. Finally after the whole drama of the ordeal had cooled down, we got back to semi-normal again, although it was always a little bit weird to be around him.
ANYWAY, back to Saturday night. I had just recently gotten his AIM name and decided to IM him since we were both on late at night. We chatted for a while and I signed off around 3:30 am. I was in bed at 6 am when my cell phone started ringing. I was like, wtf is this? And didn't answer it. Instead I turned my phone on silent and went to sleep. Well, at 8 am I woke up and was suddenly really curious as to what that 6 am phone call was about. I had one new voicemail, so I listened to it. Long story short, after I'd signed off, Chris and Paul were talking, and Chris got Paul to admit that he liked me back, and might like to hook up with me and try dating or whatever. And that Chris encouraged Paul to make his move because he knew it would make me happy.
It was pretty much a wtf moment. Never had I expected something like this, especially considering how possesive Chris was over me for the longest time. Now suddenly he is willing to set me up with one of his best friends?
So Andrew and I went to Shell to visit Paul Sunday night and he was definitely flirting with me more, it was great. Afterwards, I drove to Chris' house, even though my mom had wanted me to bring the car back by 3, and Chris came up with this "brilliant plan" to have me and Paul both come over on V-Day and finally admit to each other, instead of just hearing it through other people, that we liked each other.
Which brings us to Valentine's Day. I was nervous all day at work. It's amazing I could even eat dinner. After work I got dressed up and did my hair and stuff, and felt positively sick to my stomach on the way over to The House. I walked in, and Paul and Chris were sitting on the couch waiting for me. No one else was even there. I knew right away this was gonna be weird. I don't think I've ever gone through something more awkward in my life.
Chris was all trying to play matchmaker, saying "okay guys, now just admit to each other that you like each other, and go from there." Yeah, easy for you to say! So eventually after a bit of shoving from Chris, Paul and I sat in the garage and talked. It was the first time we'd ever sat by ourselves in person, all alone, and had a real conversation. We talked about pretty much everything, and yes, eventually we did include conversation about "us". I told him I did like him, that I hadn't meant to, and it was hella embarassing when everyone found out that I did. And he was like "Well obviously I like you too, or I wouldn't be here right now." It was cute. I sat next to him out there and we were all shy and, it was great. And yes, I had my "thing" with Chris (and Chris, lol) but Paul is the first guy I've actually been interested in dating since I broke up with Travis. And I think that says a lot.
Anyway, we talked until he had to leave for work. He gave up his ride to work from his parents and came to Chris', then rode his bike to work, in the cold. He knew of the whole "plan" when he agreed to come over. So before he left, he asked me out to a movie on Saturday night and hugged me bye. I'm like a silly little girl with a silly little crush, but I'm happy, so who cares?
Chris and I chilled for a bit, and then Snoopy came over and wanted to go to Shell and see Paul and take him some beer. I SWEAR, it wasn't even my idea! But of course I wasn't opposed to going ;). So we went out and saw him for a couple minutes. Snoopy went home and me and Chris hung out back at his place and talked. Andrew and I kept text messaging back and forth. Earlier he had texted me and said that if I wasn't busy, he'd like to take me out to dinner. I never answered that one, I wasn't quite sure how to respond. He even knew that Chris was setting up me and Paul. So later he texted me and asked if I had hooked up with Paul, and I texted back "sorta" and he sent back to me "Damn..I was gonna make you mine."
Again, I had no clue how to respond to that, so he tried saying that he was just kidding and that he only wanted me as a friend. But I've known about Andrew liking me for some time. Hell, he even had fights with Patti, his old "girlfriend" because she knew he liked me, and accused him of liking me better than her.
So apparently Andrew, his brother Greg, Scott, Paul and I are going out to breakfast after Paul gets off work at 6 am. Yes, I am giving up sleep for this, lol. Now you know I got it bad. :P
These past few days have been crazy, I swear. I hadn't even really remembered that Valentine's Day was coming. I don't have a boyfriend this year to worry about getting something for, or doing something special. So basically I just went about my business as usual. Well a couple nights ago, Saturday night I think, after I'd gone out bowling with Steven and stuff, I came home and for the first time talked to Paul online. Now that this is totally out in the open, I can write about this stuff here. Paul is the guy I have a mad crush on. It was totally an accident too..but I guess that's how it goes. Using old journal entries I tracked it back to December 1st; that's when I started liking him. Anyway, I totally kept it a secret because Paul was, at the time, Chris' roommate (he's since moved out of The House), and still is one of his best friends. Since I had my little "thing" with Chris back in October-November, I felt weird about liking one of his friends. Needless to say I've had bad experiences with that. So I kept my mouth shut. Well, almost.
I told Snoopy about my crush, and I wrote about it in confessions____, which includes people that don't know anyone that knows Paul, so I wasn't worried. Other than that, it was pretty much not talked about. Well, someone decided it would be a good idea to hack into that journal. Within a few hours, EVERYONE at The House knew I liked Paul...of course, including Paul. I was mortified and proceeded to almost totally avoid Paul for weeks. I also denied it being true. Finally after the whole drama of the ordeal had cooled down, we got back to semi-normal again, although it was always a little bit weird to be around him.
ANYWAY, back to Saturday night. I had just recently gotten his AIM name and decided to IM him since we were both on late at night. We chatted for a while and I signed off around 3:30 am. I was in bed at 6 am when my cell phone started ringing. I was like, wtf is this? And didn't answer it. Instead I turned my phone on silent and went to sleep. Well, at 8 am I woke up and was suddenly really curious as to what that 6 am phone call was about. I had one new voicemail, so I listened to it. Long story short, after I'd signed off, Chris and Paul were talking, and Chris got Paul to admit that he liked me back, and might like to hook up with me and try dating or whatever. And that Chris encouraged Paul to make his move because he knew it would make me happy.
It was pretty much a wtf moment. Never had I expected something like this, especially considering how possesive Chris was over me for the longest time. Now suddenly he is willing to set me up with one of his best friends?
So Andrew and I went to Shell to visit Paul Sunday night and he was definitely flirting with me more, it was great. Afterwards, I drove to Chris' house, even though my mom had wanted me to bring the car back by 3, and Chris came up with this "brilliant plan" to have me and Paul both come over on V-Day and finally admit to each other, instead of just hearing it through other people, that we liked each other.
Which brings us to Valentine's Day. I was nervous all day at work. It's amazing I could even eat dinner. After work I got dressed up and did my hair and stuff, and felt positively sick to my stomach on the way over to The House. I walked in, and Paul and Chris were sitting on the couch waiting for me. No one else was even there. I knew right away this was gonna be weird. I don't think I've ever gone through something more awkward in my life.
Chris was all trying to play matchmaker, saying "okay guys, now just admit to each other that you like each other, and go from there." Yeah, easy for you to say! So eventually after a bit of shoving from Chris, Paul and I sat in the garage and talked. It was the first time we'd ever sat by ourselves in person, all alone, and had a real conversation. We talked about pretty much everything, and yes, eventually we did include conversation about "us". I told him I did like him, that I hadn't meant to, and it was hella embarassing when everyone found out that I did. And he was like "Well obviously I like you too, or I wouldn't be here right now." It was cute. I sat next to him out there and we were all shy and, it was great. And yes, I had my "thing" with Chris (and Chris, lol) but Paul is the first guy I've actually been interested in dating since I broke up with Travis. And I think that says a lot.
Anyway, we talked until he had to leave for work. He gave up his ride to work from his parents and came to Chris', then rode his bike to work, in the cold. He knew of the whole "plan" when he agreed to come over. So before he left, he asked me out to a movie on Saturday night and hugged me bye. I'm like a silly little girl with a silly little crush, but I'm happy, so who cares?
Chris and I chilled for a bit, and then Snoopy came over and wanted to go to Shell and see Paul and take him some beer. I SWEAR, it wasn't even my idea! But of course I wasn't opposed to going ;). So we went out and saw him for a couple minutes. Snoopy went home and me and Chris hung out back at his place and talked. Andrew and I kept text messaging back and forth. Earlier he had texted me and said that if I wasn't busy, he'd like to take me out to dinner. I never answered that one, I wasn't quite sure how to respond. He even knew that Chris was setting up me and Paul. So later he texted me and asked if I had hooked up with Paul, and I texted back "sorta" and he sent back to me "Damn..I was gonna make you mine."
Again, I had no clue how to respond to that, so he tried saying that he was just kidding and that he only wanted me as a friend. But I've known about Andrew liking me for some time. Hell, he even had fights with Patti, his old "girlfriend" because she knew he liked me, and accused him of liking me better than her.
So apparently Andrew, his brother Greg, Scott, Paul and I are going out to breakfast after Paul gets off work at 6 am. Yes, I am giving up sleep for this, lol. Now you know I got it bad. :P