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if i can just keep seeing their eyes light up, it will all be worth it.
if i can get through to those three girls to let them know that they can relax and be real, it will all be worth it.
a. ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug, wrapped his arms around my waist and then scampered away -- i could not stop smiling.
it's all worth it.
all of the running around, late nights, early mornings, lack of sleep, trying to squeeze so much into every moment, meetings, not seeing friends, headaches, drama, all of it -- if i can just do this. i'm so tired and there is so much more left to do before i can sleep. i'm so freaking tired.
i forgot what it was like, the dancing. the fierce command and control i have over my body, and that i project -- 1 2 3 and down 5 6 7 around and 2 up up 5 6 and a 7 8 -- an unending eight count to the beat of drums. confidence in my body and its strength instead of noticing only its weakness. i am not frail or fragile, i am strong and graceful and powerful and i have forgotten to revel in my body.
more, more, more. just a little bit more.
so often we only focus on the things that are wrong with ourselves, the things we don't like about ourselves because those are easier to notice. i know that i pick myself apart every time i look in the mirror, find the things i don't like and wish i could change. we don't look at ourselves and love each other enough.
so in the spirit of self-love, i'd just like to say three things that i love about myself, and i invite you to do the same. i love my eyes, their color and shape, the little flecks of yellow and gold that hide around the edges. i love the way i walk, for so long i tried to change it, to not swing my hips and walk stiff and straight because boys made fun of me, but i can't. so i embrace my walk, hip sway and all. lastly, i love my tummy. it used to be hollow, but now it has the cutest round curve to it and is adorned with a ring.
i love myself, and i love each of you. and i hope that you all are having beautiful evenings. i'm going to go grab and shower and do a couple more things before i collapse for the evening.
♥
if i can get through to those three girls to let them know that they can relax and be real, it will all be worth it.
a. ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug, wrapped his arms around my waist and then scampered away -- i could not stop smiling.
it's all worth it.
all of the running around, late nights, early mornings, lack of sleep, trying to squeeze so much into every moment, meetings, not seeing friends, headaches, drama, all of it -- if i can just do this. i'm so tired and there is so much more left to do before i can sleep. i'm so freaking tired.
i forgot what it was like, the dancing. the fierce command and control i have over my body, and that i project -- 1 2 3 and down 5 6 7 around and 2 up up 5 6 and a 7 8 -- an unending eight count to the beat of drums. confidence in my body and its strength instead of noticing only its weakness. i am not frail or fragile, i am strong and graceful and powerful and i have forgotten to revel in my body.
more, more, more. just a little bit more.
so often we only focus on the things that are wrong with ourselves, the things we don't like about ourselves because those are easier to notice. i know that i pick myself apart every time i look in the mirror, find the things i don't like and wish i could change. we don't look at ourselves and love each other enough.
so in the spirit of self-love, i'd just like to say three things that i love about myself, and i invite you to do the same. i love my eyes, their color and shape, the little flecks of yellow and gold that hide around the edges. i love the way i walk, for so long i tried to change it, to not swing my hips and walk stiff and straight because boys made fun of me, but i can't. so i embrace my walk, hip sway and all. lastly, i love my tummy. it used to be hollow, but now it has the cutest round curve to it and is adorned with a ring.
i love myself, and i love each of you. and i hope that you all are having beautiful evenings. i'm going to go grab and shower and do a couple more things before i collapse for the evening.
♥