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1. Tonight I'm over at Syd's with her, Jen, Jess, & Suz. They really are like sisters in a way; the relationships that I have with each are all different but we all have a common bond. Jess always makes me laugh(and is a really good cuddler), Jen and I will always talk about everything that means anything to us & will always be the one to tell me the hard things to hear, Syd is my know-it-all who tries too hard, and Suzy will always be an overachiever that goes too far & worries me to death.
2. Last night I spent a few hours talking to an old friend. I hope everything ends up working out for the both of us. We both have a completely different set of teenage problems to forget about with a fresh start.
3. A "friend" lied to me, and I wish I would have listened to my best friend when he said to avoid him. I just wanted to be friends so badly, but instead I just got my feelings hurt. I think he got the wrong idea because there was no reason for him to lie. I just remember him holding the stranger that I was at the funeral, and I want to believe that he is really the person I know now.
4. I had this dream last night that I was eating chocolate chip cookies & my brother walked in and asked me what I was doing. So I exclaimed "Oh my god, these aren't vegan?!", ran to the bathroom like I was going to throw up and continued to eat them.
5. I wouldn't think twice about using a boy for sexual reasons. If feelings came into play later, so be it.
6. My mouth stops functioning when I need it the most.
7. I haven't talked to him in a few days & I'm realizing this is how it's going to be. I'm trying to let him go because he's moving on either way.
8. Today at work I got in trouble with the big boss while my shift boss who okayed it was standing right there. I looked at him to see if he would take responsibilty and when he didn't I apologized and took care of it. The coward later apologized(or better yet-made excuses) in private.
9. When I'm single I change in more ways then I even notice. How much I want to do things hasn't changed but I'm actually taking action. And it's because I'm not comfortable anymore.
10. My mom wants to move this summer to a smaller house. We wouldn't be more than 30 minutes away. I guess the thing that scares me is going to a new school, but I could use new people.